Why am I now craving? :-(

Im having a bad day.....for no particular reason, Im craving bad today. I keep thinking I just want a glass of wine and a cig............Can't kick it out of my head......aaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhh

Its the first time Ive really craved since quitting, I feel like Im missing something, like my only relax device has been taken away.....albeit, my choice to quit.

NEED TO STAY QUIT, NEED TO STAY QUIT, NEED TO STAY QUIT...........and breathe!!

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  • Hi Isha, you are not missing out on anything just take a moment and actuly try to imagine how you would feel now if you smoked.

    You have been so strong so far and I pretty much know that you won't smoke now love. I have faith in you not to let yourself down like that. Have a little faith in yourself.

    Go have a nice long bath, keep breathing nice deep calming breaths and above all feel that pride in yourself. Don't let go of that.

    Stay strong, I have my fingers crossed

    Molly x

  • I feel ashamed to say this.................but too late.... :-(

  • Good Books

    Hi Isha

    Keep going with Kat you got each other and you can do this... You have to do this for me also as I am chasing you both...lol.. I have just poured my glass of red even though it's a Monday night and failing that you can always put yourself to bed...8.30pm is an acceptable time surely. What book you reading? Have you read Mr 50 Shades Grey? Worth going to bed early for!;)

  • Feel so pissed off with myself, Im sorry guys and gals, I know Ive let you & myself down......and my hubby & son.............feel shit.

    Ive not craved at all really since quitting, TODAY though, the urge hit hard.....Im mean crying HARD. Ive no idea why.......or where it has come from..........felt like I was gritting my teeth all day long.....struggling to breathe....panicking....all been really strange.

    Im so sorry .. x

  • Ive opened a bottle of Rose....drowning my sorrows! I can't afford to be a smoker, I want my son to go to pre school, I can only afford it if I don't smoke..................what a selfish cow Ive been..............AAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

  • Feel so pissed off with myself, Im sorry guys and gals, I know Ive let you & myself down......and my hubby & son.............feel shit.

    Ive not craved at all really since quitting, TODAY though, the urge hit hard.....Im mean crying HARD. Ive no idea why.......or where it has come from..........felt like I was gritting my teeth all day long.....struggling to breathe....panicking....all been really strange.

    Im so sorry .. x

    Isha, my original quit date was 5th September. I cocked up 3 times! The only thing I promised myself was that I WOULD NOT carry it over to the next day each time. So, when it happened I cocked up for only that day. I got up the VERY NEXT day and got on with it. Don't let go Isha, get right back on with it tomorrow. Please love, you really can do this, honestly, believe me. I'm 4 months in now.

    Molly x

  • Hi Isha

    I would like to say I have heard many people say and read it on every quit site I have ever found that craves last only a few minutes.

    I also say that for the first 6 weeks or more of my quit they lasted every second, of every minute of every day!!

    I felt "abnormal" as I read the "facts" about craves!..."why am I different?" - "Nobody has had craves like this before!" - "This is unbearable" - "smokesmokesmokesmokesmokesmoke" going round and round my head ALL the time!

    Now whether I was chemically craving or psychologically wanting I do not know (what I mean is couldn't tell the difference).... I do know it was seriously difficult to deal with!

    Until I read on a site somewhere the phrase - What resists, persists!

    It told me to allow the craves (or wants) in fully.

    To not be afraid of the thoughts!

    When we quit it is only normal to think about smoking .... the thing that has been removed becomes the most precious thing in the world!

    Resisting these feelings and thoughts would only make them worse .... would only add to the strength of feeling that I was denying myself something.

    It advised that I should mentally picture myself "outside my head" .... remove the me from the battle that was raging. Only then would I see the "want" (not need) to smoke in a completely different light.

    To fight the battle when your mind is slap bang in the middle of it is an impossible task ... but stepping back a little gives your mind the freedom to fight the battle and ultimately win the war.

    I have failed many times before.

    I have been sobbing like a child ..... and had to smoke. The relief was very short lived and was closely followed by the guilt.

    Many many people have done exactly the same..... My main regret was leaving so many years between trying again.

    Don't beat yourself up about it....

    Gather your thoughts, ana lyse what has happened in this quit and use the information to your advantage.

    I really feel for you at the moment Isha....everybody will....and everybody will be right there to back you up all the way next time.

    Try to relax,

    Take good care of yourself

    Greg

    x

  • Oh Nifty...and all,

    Thank you so much for your words. I'm trying to go over my day to work out why and whats happened to make me crave so bad. There are a few things that may have contributed.............but ultimately it was me that lit up at the end of the day.

    Can't believe I was hitting the third week and then cracked.........wish I had of ridden through the craves today...........

    Still confused too.....how can you crave whilst on NRT?

  • I'm on NRT Isha and was craving like I described!

    Most people that smoke an average amount reportedly get between 50 and 60mg of nicotine per day.

    When we use NRT we get what (depending how much we use) say 20-30mg tops?

    But I believe what we are dealing with whilst on NRT is the psychological part or quitting. This must be 90% plus of the quit.

    I'm not ashamed to say I tried to go cold turkey around 5 days in to my quit and failed miserably having to go back on the NRT.

    At that point in time I had not smashed the hundreds or even thousands of "pavlovian" triggers I had given myself over the last 25+ years...I was not ready and my mind was screaming .. gimme gimme gimme!!

    I am only now beginning to feel as though I am ready to drop the NRT.

    The associations are dwindling and the wants are getting fewer, lighter and further apart.

    NRT is not a complete package or an answer....it just gives us a little time to deal with the unraveling of decades of habit.

    Hope that made sense :o

    Greg

    x

  • ISHA, don't try to psycho****yse right now, it probably won't help. Sleep, and pick yourself up in the morning, read the posts, for they are FULL of wise words and experiences from those ahead of you in the quit. we've all come so far and i can see the green lights of 'we're logged on' all over your thread. You are soooo respected this is genuine feeling and concern. You are loved at home, and genuinely respected here for what you are doing.

    Sleep well, pick up and go again tomorrow. We will be there. :)

  • Well said Hawk.

  • Oh god the bloody an@l thing again. Moderators when are you going to realise this stuff is ISNT about swearing, it's about humans. Daft.

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