Cant Win!

Today i have thought of smoking all day long ???

It is a some or other public holiday today , and I took leave for tomorrow so I could have a nice long weekend.

I am re-purposing an old Poweredge 2650 twas my old DC and NAS but only supported 32bit :(

So it has been turned into a media server , maybe i am used to smoking when I "Tinker" on my home network BUT throughout the entire day I have found myself reaching for my smokes whilst waiting for servers to boot.

In the past it was a treat to smoke when I was working at home or on my home network or even when doing remote support , now it seems to be another trigger i will need to work on.

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  • That is a horrible feeling isn't it when you reach for your fags and then think " oh I don't smoke anymore" then you get that pang of longing and sadness :( but from past experiences it really does get easier and I have only ever got to 3 months so like Deb said that's a good trigger ticked off, next time you have a tinker or work from home you probably won't have that longing.... Just keep it going day by day :)

  • Look at it as another box ticked u are doing great. Enjoy what u are doing, have no idea what it is, but u are clearly enjoying it x

    Exactly what I was thinking! My OH is like that (understands all that IT stuff). I frequently feel I am in the presence of a Greater Brain and it is clearly the same with you. :D

    But, Dude, it's quite true- those trigger curved balls can catch us unawares for a long time. It just happens less and less frequently as time passes. Just hang on to that wonderful post you made the other day, when you were feeling so happy and laid-back. That's how you will feel tomorrow I am sure. :)

  • Wtf ????

    Have just finished fitting a speedo on the bike it is 12:39 and i have fought this demon NON stop, worse than that is i have had a "few" vodies to relax.

    Wow i would kill for a smoke , and too boot my 19 yr old Daughter has just moved in with her BF.

    I am 45yr old 111kg South African MAN sitting her crying my eyes out!, I miss my Daughter and my heart is very SORE - OMG must be alcohol and self pity kicking in but she is my baby GIRL and between her moving in with the BF and quitting smoking i am really having a BAD time , i am REALY sitting here crying like a baby.

  • Oh no Dude, I'm so sorry!!! I'm 39 and although I left home at 18 I will always be my daddy 's girl!!! As she will be yours ! It must be so hard to let go, but be strong. She will always be your baby girl!!

  • SJ,

    thnks for the prompt reply - but I am sooooo tired and for the first time i feel as if things are really getting to me ! , i am by no means a weak person however i have fought the fight and feel like throwing in towel and having a smoke , and then resuming the quit tomorrow! i am an emotional WRECK!!

  • SJ,

    thnks for the prompt reply - but I am sooooo tired and for the first time i feel as if things are really getting to me ! , i am by no means a weak person however i have fought the fight and feel like throwing in towel and having a smoke , and then resuming the quit tomorrow! i am an emotional WRECK!!

    I'm sure you know deep down that smoking now will not change anything. You will feel worse than ever. Try hang in there, I'm sure the cravings will subside soon and you will feel so proud of yourself for getting through this. Have you tried drinking sparkling water? I find that helps when I'm craving. Another thing that works for me is standing next to someone smoking. It puts me off straight away. Think of the cough coming back, think about the awful smell. Think about doing day 1 again!!!!

    There will be huge ups and downs along the way, but you are through the worst of it.

    Sarah

  • Dude, it's far from being the first time a grown man has admitted on the forum to crying like a baby. It's all perfectly normal and very understandable under the circumstances so don't you go feeling furtive or mortified about it. :)

    I expect you'll be feeling heaps better by the time you read this- I hope so anyway- and your little girl will always be your little girl no matter how far she roams. :)

  • Ah, daughters. :) You have to let them go and live their lives, however much you want to keep them close so that you can keep them safe! As long as you love her and she loves you and you both know that you love each other, then all will be as it should........they have to fly the nest at some point and start their independent lives. Imagine if she was still living with you when she's 50! :eek: :)

    I can see how it all seems to be piling up for you right now, but it's getting through these difficult times that leads to becoming a non-smoker. We all know how it feels......you are not alone in this. Come here and have a good old rant/moan/scream/cry whenever you want to. Quite a few times I've had to pour my heart out on here.......I even had a good old scream once. But....that is what the forum is for, so make as much use of it as you can. :)

    Val :)

  • Thanks everyone back on track and still strong in my quit, going to set up a minecraft server for my son and then have a chilled day.

  • Glad you're feeling better Dude :)

    You sound like a lovely family man. I bet your children and your wife are dead proud of you aren't they?

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