Quitting for "good" the first time around was one of the hardest things I did.
I started smoking at 16, and spent the next 10 years being a smoker that hated everything about smoking. I would almost walk around with a self loathing, at the fact i smoked. then one day aged 27 I just woke up and stopped. after years of patches, gums, tapes and willpower, i just stopped.
I praised the ground that it wasn't a fluke, I kept waiting for the "need" to return but it didn't, I was free. I rejoiced.
Then 6 weeks ago, I had one. then a few smoke free days. then a couple on a night out. Then 2 or 3 smoke free days. I went into denial. I ignored the fact. i kidded myself I could handle it. 5 weeks later I'm hooked. Back on them full time. I hate myself. i cant believe it.
So, here I am day 3, smoke free. Getting a bit testy, could use some solid support........