Hey everyone, So from my quit i would of been on day 8 now. Ill be honest i was a little embarrsed to come on here on my day 5 to say that i had relapsed.
What it was is that on the monday night i confirmed going to a friends birthday on the saturday which is a clubbing night out. i posted saying how much this set me off but i went to bed and didnt cave in. I woke up next day and i felt ROUGH but i was ok. I then had a stressful day mediating between a fall out between two close friends, bothing ringing me about the other one etc and i just caved in. Stupid i know.
The one thing i did take away from me is that quitting is actualy easy. Like i mean the initial withdrawl stage is fine, it is indeed staying quit that is the challenege.
I havent given up though (i never will either) Once I am home satuday night i plan to pack up again, I really dont fancy doing it the day befre going out drinking with 10 smokers...thats just stupid. Ill use lozengers for now as i havent got a stretch of 4 days that i need to get through the worst of it next week.
ah i dont know, its horrible because when i give up, it seems like i just cant live my life the same, as i started smoking when i was 14 ive only ever known nights out, clubbing as a smoker. I think for a good 9 months i would rather just not drink! id prefere to be a non smoker tbh. But i cant just not go to things because its not fair on the people i care about.....
I dont know. I just needed a vent really. and sorry to those who gave me all that lovely support 
xxx
Day 5 - Hopefully I can get through with with less Ranting!
