As with several past nights, I was insomniac last night and was surfing the net for some hours reading about smoking.
I found out that even one puff would force me to relapse. I became so depressed knowing that I can't smoke anymore, I even thought I'd better remain a smoker than always having to fight against temptation.
But then I read something very useful,
quitsmoking.about.com/od/pr... which reminded me of the very particular cig that made me relapse 3 years ago.
I was at holidays in a beach city, at night I went to the seaside, and the dark black sea was so gloomy that I couldn't do anything but to jump in the car, drive and buy cigs.
When I returned to the beach and lit my cigarette, I became so downhearted because IT WASN'T WHAT I EXPECTED AT ALL! It made me light headed and feel nausea.
It is a real big temptation falsely thinking that the cig of relapse would relieve and relax us so much, but the fact is that it is completely vice versa. If you have ever relapsed in the past you know what I'm talking about, just try to remember that before lighting the cig...