Day one again for me
After 190 days(ish) of not smoking I crumbled and have been smoking again for the last 2 weeks. I have come to the realisation that whilst nobody else knows, its only myself I am cheating. My 8 year old daughter asked why i smelt of "ash" the other day and I managed to explain it away. It would seriously upset both my kids to know I have been smoking again.
Lessons learnt: By having to hide, I know what I am doing is stupid and wrong. I have to stop again!
So here I am. Again.