im having to start again. I was on day 8.
I have a panic disorder and havent left my village in 5 years and I decided its time to get out and see the world. I went to London to the museum and the theatre. On the way I couldnt bring myself to get on the train. I found it hard to breathe, due to anxiety. After having a cigarette, it helped me to control my breathing and settled me down. I am not proud of it and I was really concerned most about the smell. It tasted horrible, i might have well just licked the floor on the train!! I dont ever want to smoke again!!! Im putting my patches on and Im more determined than ever!!