I want to be honest about my pit falls in life so i ahve come to let you all know. I wasnt ready yet, i knew i was going to relapse on my holiday (4 weeks time in magaluf) which is why these last 4 days were so hard because in my head i already had :mad:
But its ok, I have quit before and been smiling each day so i know the difference. Its ok though, for whatever reason i am hanging on to this addiction and i need to figure out why until i can quit completely, as i was not physically addicted for the last nearly 3 weeks! (quit cold turkey). I will do it, im only 24 so i cant help but think its because i feel like im haning up my 'party hat'? when live gets serious maybe i will get serious.
But just to warn those who really DO WANT to quit and are worrying, you cannot have one puff, i woke up these morning and the demon was back already even after just 2 ciggerttes yesterday! madness! i am a smoker again. and it is abit gutting im not going to lie.
Anyways ill be back when its time again good luck everyone xxxx