Hi i started smoking again yesterday.....It was just one of those days where my mind kept telling me im not strong enough to quit and that you have really got to want to quit to stop smoking .I really did start questioning my thoughts.
I also started thinking to far ahead like how am i going to be able to not smoke when i go round to my mates next saturday to watch the fa cup final When they will be smoking and drinking.
Then i caved and smoked 3 cigarettes and did not feel bad about doing it today im still smoking.I always seem to get past the first week but fail alot on the second week.I think me writing how i feel will help me alot because it makes more sence in text than in my mind...If that makes any sense.
Today i do feel bad about smoking but i think if i just quit straight away again i will be smoking again soon.I know what i just said is not a good way to look at it,but its just the way i feel today.
Its knocked me down but ill be getting back on my feet soon hopefully and giving it another go