Yup i have relapsed after nearly making it to 2 months quit:mad:
Been smoking for the past 5 days and already back onto 20 a day:eek:
I know silly me i only have myself to blame.But im not beating myself up to much about it.
I think it all started going downhill since my blip on the 13th of jan and after that it became a mind battle and just could not take my quit serious anymore after that. Silly thoughts like thinking of situations in the near future and thinking ohhhh ill never be able to get through it without smoking, so why not start smoking now and quit after:eek: (Crazy thinking i know)
No more blips for me next time because i know where that leads!!!
Really would like to say ill quit tomorrow but some issues are stoping me (1) my mind just keeps contradicting me. (2)fear of failure really dont want to quit smoking again to just relapse yet again.
My main trigger is i like smoking at work with my work mate.
But hate smoking at home on my own its just sooo boring. But still have to smoke the ones i dont want to stop the craves.
Grrrr such a shame i cant smoke just when i want to.
Yet i know deep down it would be even nicer not to have any disire to smoke.
Because its only a matter of time when ill get to that point again that ill get fed up of being a slave to the nicotine.