Sorry I have not been on for a few days but ive been to hell and back (or it certainly feels like it) But on the bright side i didnt smoke whilst there, ha ha
What a few days i have had (and its all down to not smoking) I have been so low and strugging to think this is how my life will now be forever ............. Boring. I have not wanted to be sociable or talk to anyone as i needed to make my own decisions on what i wanted to do . I am just so glad that i have come out the other end feeling a bit better and still convinced that i want to stay stopped with the faith that in a few months my life will feel normal again even with out the cigs. I think this time it does feel different because i know it is for ever and that is brilliant but has also scared the shit out of me.
You lot (especially Lorna and christine) have all helped to keep me motivated whilst going through this turmoil. I have not wanted to let you down and im pleased to say i havnt.
Hows everyone else doing ? i do hope you two are still with me as well as everyone else !!!!
I am going to spend tonight on here catching up with everyone progress and its nice to be back and on track. On friday, can you believe it will be two weeks.
Big hugs to you all