I'm going to be free again and defeat this drug. I'm currently reading allen carr's book, I think im going to stay awake the whole night and read it throughout because I dont want to wake up another day as a smoker.
I have been on this forum a few times before. The longest I have quit is 1 month and a week. I'm only 22 and I know that I need to quit now I hear people tell me that im so young I should give it up but I have always found it so hard. I've smoked since I was 15 and in the last few years its taken over my life. I smoke when im down and I smoke when im bored and I love a cigarette when im happy. I think people are shocked when I tell them how badly addicted I am for my age and how many years I have been smoking.
I don't even smoke that much I usually smoke 10 aday sometimes 20.
I've made so many breakthrough's with my life recently overcome some struggles and now I want to quit this forever. I hate waking up everyday wanting a cigarette and then when I can't have them im miserable and im still miserable when I do have them. I want this whole thing out of my life. I really believe it changes the way I am. This year ive had 2 days here and there where I have quit and I feel so much better and think better but the cravings I give into.
I've done some really embarrising things when I have run out of money I will go to the shops with 1 and 2ps. The money side of it I'm stuggling also with money I dont earn that much but with every penny I get I end up buying cigarettes. I tell myself everyday this will be the last packet yet the next day I wake up and go and buy some more. Everyday Is I'll quit tomorrow. Then when I do have a serious quit and last for 2 days I persude myself In my head that I've picked the wrong time and Ill smoke 1 more pack and then start again tomorrow. There are 101 reasons I want to stop.
I just want my life back and I will have it back.
I've learnt that whether u think you can or you can't... your right.
I'm going to stick to this forum this time round and post every single day and also post any tips I find useful.