Day 4...

[nsd_user663_56564]

I have made it to day 4 with ease but for this next week or two it will be hell. Some pretty horrible things happened so now my mother is staying with me at my grandmothers house and she brings a lot of stress and worry. She is an alcoholic and ex drug user leaving me to have to count insulin syringes and my savings money. I am a babysitter for her right now and we do not get along well at all... this will be an extraordinarily difficult time for me.... I have thought of nothing but cigarettes with all of the stress I am under, this will not be good. I am trying to stay strong though.

[nsd_user663_42390]

You have done very well to get to day 4 Snickers. I can understand your concern with all the stress living with an alcoholic brings, but smoking never made anything better. Do you have other family members that can support you?

I think you need to come on here to rant, if you need to and there will always be someone who will listen and advise you if they can.

I hope it doesn't turn out as bad as you are anticipating and you can stay quit. It sounds like it is only for a couple of weeks so hopefully you will be able to get through.

We are here if you need us.

[nsd_user663_56564]

I am hoping it will only be for a couple of weeks but I do not know for sure how long it will be. Last time a little stay lasted a year or so. But I keep talking myself out of smoking because who really wants to repeat this whole process? I would probably be very upset with myself so I have just been reminding myself that I do not want throat cancer and end up with a stoma! (My main reason for wanting to quit). I am just hoping that will keep working the way I need it to.

[nsd_user663_56564]

Thank you. I have been doing well at staying away from cigarettes and been keeping my mind busy, I think that I can get through this.