Ok so another of my motivations was my baby boy- he outright asked me to stop ( should really get round to writing a list in one place)
and despite the fact im past the 2 month mark im laden with guilt as he is sat next to me on the sofa barking like he's been chugging on and exhaust pipe for a year,
I smoked while i carried him (justified by its my body HOW DARE YOU tell me what i can /cant do, theyre ultra lights & its only 4 a day instead of 20 and ((the truth i was never ever prepared to have kids it wasnt part of the plan))) yet as soon as i had him i quit. no craves, no temper, no issue it never bothered me to be around smokers i was indifferent, then when he was about 9 months old i just picked oneupand started again (right about the time i stopped feeding him) same happened for my baby girl.
So now he's barking away feeling rotten and so am i, i can (just about) cope with the damamge i may have caused myself, but what long term crap have i lined up for them? If guilt offsets it they should be ok, if not im screwed
im off to eat choccy and cuddle him and generally make him say mu-um get off me im not a baby