im praying for and dreading the dentists, ive not had a solid nights sleep for a month now, im living on anti inflamitorys and codiene and paracetamol, i know its my own fault (previous depression, booze issues & smoking) with a fear of dentists has made me neglect my mouth and boy am i paying for it. I think ive an abcess and im racked with pain all nigt every night - todya was the earliest i could see my dentist though.
It wouldnt suprise me if my fall down the stairs was just through tiredness, though when ive fallen ive chipped the tooth (even more) thats been killing me anyway, so while my ankle knee and collarbone/shoulder are healing nicely i cant stop with the pain killers just yet, i figure i may as well get it out the way now while im signed off work anyway right?
an hour before i go, im literally trembling, I KNOW Ill be ok once im in the chair, but i feel sick at the lectures and snooty looks im due (ive never known a dentist do this btw but this is the scene in my head!) and being spoken to like im a nugget, but maybe this time i can say look ive not smoked for eleven weeks (at 3pm same time as my appt!!) so can we please go about fixnig my bad work.
I guess i feel ashamed that ive let it get so bad, i just want this over with though
Suprisingly (for me) dont want a cig even though im scared,
see you later guys and thanks for listening its actually helped LOADS