Here We Go Again (Day 1)

Hey everybody,

Things were going so well, I had given up for nearly 6 months then while I was under the influence, I thought that it would be a good idea to have one.

I had one and enjoyed it, then the next day I bought my own pack and I had a few cigarettes, they didn't feel good but I carried on anyway.

Now here I am a couple weeks on and I have decided to quit again!

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  • 6 months Tombo & only back on them for a couple of weeks thats some thing to be proud. You quit before you can do it again, good luck

  • Completely agree with sarah*, you defo can do it again :D

  • Well done you for getting back on the horse or wagon whatever it is! yay! :D

  • Its never a good idea to have one, theres no such thing as one i hope u know.

    if i sound like aheartless bitch its cos today i am one.

    M

  • Tombo, at least you haven't given up giving up :)

    Hopefully this one will be your "forever quit" as you have learned that you're only one puff away from being back to 20 a day.

    Keep strong!

    Gary

  • Mash are you ok????

    Thinking of you :)

    Zoe xx

  • Yes im fine i just think tough love is whats needed sometimes most people should know by now that you cant mess with addictions. the next person that tries the I'll just have one puff malarky, can expect a slap from me and then a bucket of shit over ther heads. whats difficult about saying no to one puff. the very idea of someone thinking it might be a good idea to try one is ludicrous , they know damm well its not a good idea just like it not a good idea to play on railways. next time anyone gets the idea to smoke should suspend it and ask this forum what they think of this good idea ? does anyone think it is? no i didnt think so. im just a heartless bitch today. and will be tomorrow as well its part of the giving up process. if i cant smoke then im dammed if anyone else will . I thought it would be a good idea to smoke. my arse.

    M:D

  • The person who wrote the initial post is starting again.

    This is a second quit for mash and when he smoked the first time round everyone here encouraged him to start again. Everyone knows that taking one puff is dangerous territory which is why when it happens they come here to try again.

    It's a support forum and not a let me take my bad month out on you personally forum.

    Fek sake...second time today. Respect, Lady :cool:

  • I am in the same boat as you Tombo. It feels like crap, doesn't it? But good on you for getting back to your quit so quickly. I wish you well, and will be following in your footsteps very soon.

  • :cool:I must apolohize for my outburst especially to yo Tombo. After reading your post several buttons were pressed, i was reminded of a relapse i had back in may 2011 andthe sense of despair it gave me. also the stupidity of taking up smoking again, with a voice in my head saying oh well youve stopped once u can do it again,. it lied i did stop again but it was the hardest thing iv ever had to do in my life and i only just made it.

    I think my outburst was really directed at myself because to be honest i have been tempted to return to smoking recently and throw it all away, throw the baby out with the bathwater kind of thing. think i need to be told by some hardhearted bitch. NO Mike your not going back[ i use the word bitch as a verb rather than a noun by the way] i find pussyfooting and the softly softly approach gives me permissionto do the very thing i dont want to do.

    Im not myself at present im full of anger and at war with several people since my quitstarted. i also started a course of anti-depressantsback in oct which are making me suicidal and having violent outbursts [not physical] they are also destroying my soul to top it all iv gone deaf, it started in one ear and now its both. gp says its ear wax blocking them and im waiting [in silence] to have them syringed. im living in a completly silent world, its like the world has left town leaving me alone in this silence, its scary

    funny thing is when i smoked we[smoking and me] could cope with anything.

    at the end of the day each time i come across arelapse it makes me sad , then angry. i should just get used to the fact it happens.

    PLease accept my apologies i will try to be less vicious

    except towards my sworn enemy Smoking,

    tara for now

    Mash x

  • PLease accept my apologies i will try to be less vicious

    except towards my sworn enemy Smoking,

    tara for now

    Mash x

    Mash, I didn't think your post vicious or warranting any unlady like aimed commentary.

    Some folk, not anyone in particular, just need to get some better level of empafcukingthy.

    You say tara for now ... that has overtones of retreating like a scolded puppy. Please don't.

    You've been through some shit times and still feeling raw with it all.

    Wishing you brighter positive times, Mash x

  • WOOF WOOF wags his tail and hogs the fire x

  • Hope this means that you're sticking around on the Forum, Mash.

    Quitting can be very difficult...but then throw in the rest of life and no wonder posts can be quite strained. For my part, by agreeing with Karri above I was supporting her comments which seemed aimed at another applauding from the wings, so to speak.

    Keep on, keepin' on, Mash :)

  • WOOF WOOF wags his tail and hogs the fire x

    Sometimes think life would be easier as a dog, I often envy my two when I have to get up early on winter mornings :( lol

  • Actually before people accuse me of showing no empathy towards Mash then perhaps you should have asked me first. I have never once said anything that isn't supportive towards mash, in fact I have always posted a few words of encouragement when he has been down. I did nothing more than advise Mash to take a couple of days out. That was for no other reason than I know him well enough to recognise his posts the last few days haven't been his usual humerous reads.

    My post followed on from someone else. Someone who seems to just drop by every now and then over the last few weeks to write posts that instigate or make no sense.

    I might talk a lot of nonsense on a regular basis but I'm not a nasty person. I don't think it's fair to keep portraying me in that light either. My only real crime seems to be that I can be a bit of a twat at times. It's hardly worthy of constantly using my posts to put me down without cause.

    Maybe you'll think it odd for me to say this but you are very much part of this Forum. Sadly you do ensure that we have to repaint every now and again due to your continual going back and forth smoking.

    Hey, you are actually trying to stop smoking...I'm absolutely convinced about that. But it's not me that needs to be convinced, rather it's you.

    We always do say (to quitters) come here and rant. That's what Mash has done...that's what you have done. Everyone's said sorry and wiped the tears away.

    Now get the bubbles out and go for a soak fer gawd sake woman :p

  • Hey Mash

    Hey Mash I agree with you :)

    Yes im fine i just think tough love is whats needed sometimes most people should know by now that you cant mess with addictions. the next person that tries the I'll just have one puff malarky, can expect a slap from me and then a bucket of shit over ther heads. whats difficult about saying no to one puff. the very idea of someone thinking it might be a good idea to try one is ludicrous , they know damm well its not a good idea just like it not a good idea to play on railways. next time anyone gets the idea to smoke should suspend it and ask this forum what they think of this good idea ? does anyone think it is? no i didnt think so. im just a heartless bitch today. and will be tomorrow as well its part of the giving up process. if i cant smoke then im dammed if anyone else will . I thought it would be a good idea to smoke. my arse.

    M

    And no way are you a heartless bitch either. Thank you so much for all you put into this forum, you are inspiring me to quit again, and that means a lot to me.

    Zoe xx

  • Hey Karri

    My post followed on from someone else. Someone who seems to just drop by every now and then over the last few weeks to write posts that instigate or make no sense.

    Hey Karri, did you mean me?? I'm sorry if I offended you, I was just concerned that Mash was feeling down. I agree I am a bit random and don't make sense, thanks for that :D

    Sheesh!!

    Zoe xx

  • Oh and Karri, if you have anything to say to me say it to my face with honesty, not 'my post followed someone else' LOL you are really destroying my confidence you know.

    But we are ALL going through a hard time, so I understand.

    All the best to you.

    Zoe xx

  • Oh and Karri, if you have anything to say to me say it to my face with honesty, not 'my post followed someone else' LOL you are really destroying my confidence you know.

    But we are ALL going through a hard time, so I understand.

    All the best to you.

    Zoe xx

    In fairness I think Karrie was refering to Penthouseroof whose posts make no sense and seem to be trying to provoke

  • In fairness I think Karrie was refering to Penthouseroof whose posts make no sense and seem to be trying to provoke

    Could be. But I am so down on myself and paranoid at the mo :(

    Zoe xx

  • In fairness I think Karrie was refering to Penthouseroof whose posts make no sense and seem to be trying to provoke

    Thanks john - Yes that is who I was referring to. My initial response was to him and it was him I referred to in my follow on explanation.

    Well, that makes 3 of us then ;)

    Had that bath and not a tin of beans in sight :D

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  • Wow, this wasn't quite the response I was expecting to the thread but oh well :p

    Anyway, just to clarify I didn't think that it would "just be one" cigarette, I entered the situation knowing that I would be smoking the next day too but I decided to do it because I wanted to smoke and the next day I didn't even feel disappointed that I had smoked again.

    I decided to give up again mainly for the health reasons and because I have already managed nearly 6 months so I can manage more :)

    I guess I'm not the "typical" quitter because I didn't get down-beaten about smoking again, I did it because I wanted to. I didn't feel like a failure or anything, I just felt like I was smoking again.

    Anyway, thank you everyone for your different inputs in this thread, it was quite an interesting read!

  • Wow, this wasn't quite the response I was expecting to the thread but oh well

    ha ha discombobulated threads are the norm these days......:eek:

    Hope you back on the No Smoking track :)

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