I'm escaping this trap!
I wan't my mind back! I've tried quitting a million times... every sunday I say this week is a new start, then it's every month then every christmas and birthday. I've had a couple of good quits which only lasted a month. The only reason I start back up is because of the friends I was hanging round with smoke. In my head I feel like I'm missing out and why should I care I'm only 22 I should just enjoy myself.
So then I tried just socal smoking with my friends but that dosen't work for me as then I just want to hang out with smokers all the time. I always have reasons why I can't stop... It's either work is stressful (I don't know how to cope yet at work) or when I have days off I'm bored and smoking is gives me something todo.
I know all those reasons are stupid! I know smoking is just a drug and it takes awhile for it to leave the system so it's just a few weeks of discomfort. I made the decision that I will not wait any longer to stop, I'm going to stop saying I can't! I've made this goal and wrote it down, and joining this forum and being able to bitch with other quitters lol having this support system I'm sure is going to help me be successful.
I know there is no such thing as overnight results... It's the journey! I'm trying to get into the right frame of mind but I'm not in it. Although I don't think it matters anyway b/c on quits before I've been determend from day 1 and in the right frame of mind and that only lasts for a few weeks anyway and then I struggle.
What I'm trying to remember is that I'm not addicted to cigarettes I'm addicted to nicotine.
Ok well after I post this message I will have my final cigarette ever!
I'm going to beat this!!! No drug is going to kill me and I'm no mug who spends £7 aday on something that kills me.