Back to day 1..

[nsd_user663_28299]

Hi

Well what a disaster. I got to day 6 on champix and realised it was upsetting my digestion so much I daren't have any more.

Went to see the nurse but I must have left that a bit late cos she didn't get back to me, and when I rang all the nurses had gone home.

So, today, I have not smoked, but I have 1) overeaten and 2) had a mini lozenge- those things I was trying to do without- and was doing without till late last week.

Am feeling teary cos my friend is poorly again.

Am angry cos several people have harmed me and I can't get over my husband going on holiday yet again with my brother and sister in law- this is worse cos my sister in law and my husband had an affair which they've now both told me about.

It's supposed to have finished two years ago, but if so why wasn't I invited to see them till this year? :mad:

and why did my friends do such terrible things to me, and why is she now dying? :confused:

The vicar says it's God's will but I do get so angry with God.

Hope that doesn't offend anyone!

Just been trying nearly two years now.. plus all the other times i tried before then.