Having some friends round tonight with a fire in the garden (no intention of burning them...... yet:mad and was trying set up some sort of shelter but was having some issues when i could feel myself getting a mass craving and in turn getting more stressed and stressed and stressed when BANG i lost it, I was screaming in the garden F'ing and Geffing and kicking the shit out of the shed....... wife went inside (and took the dog), neighbours hid behind curtains.
I ended up facing a corner with my head against the wall taking deep breaths to try and calm myself.
I have to admit that when i'd calmed down it really frightened me as was thinking what if i'd been in an argument with someone and that had happened...... i could have hospitalised them (or worse:eek without batting an eyelid.
Honestly it was like the Incredible Hulk (ok, so i don't look like him) but the intensity of it outstanded me.
I can hear Bruce Banners words now "Don't make me angry, you wouldn't like me when i'm angry"
I've been stressed before and had cravings but NEVER like what happened.
I know you should try and take yourself out of a situation when you feel a craving combined with stress but it was like a tidal wave and i was riding it!!
Anyway, i'm calm now, not had a ciggie thank god:cool: