...slipping??

Was doing so well - pretty much a crave free day 2 up until an hour ago and it's not "craves" as such as ridiculous thoughts i know are from nicodemon e.g.

1. I saw someone's quit date was 01/01/11 and someone else's was 10.10.10 and thought my quit date 17.01.11 is stupid - i should start again and then stop on a "better" date - WTF is that? Ridiculous

2.OH texted saying bad day at work and he wants to smoke! Makes it so hard when you're almost "let off the hook" cos i could "blame him" even though i know, I KNOW, i'd be sooooo disapointed in myself.

3.Eating more than usual, not terrible but have stupid thoughts like "i know i'll start smoking again, lose weight and then when i stop i'll have lost enough to be able to put some on without worrying"

....how do you get by this?:(

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  • Lulabelle

    I don't know how you get past all this, all I know is I am nearly at the end of day 4 and had so many "whats the point" thoughts, but just can't bear to go back to day one again.

    The first day was one of the worst of my life, but strangky one of the best too - cause I did it and all by myself too. And I kind of feel like that for each of the other days too, although less and less as each goes by. I know this may seem silly cause it is only day 4 but as someone who had one nearly every hour I have now missed out on 55 cigarettes and that is something!!!

    I hope you can work through this, try and get to the morning and take it from there. You and your OH are two seperate people and you may not be able to give up together, just concentrate on your self and try to get there.

    Thinking of you

    Helen

  • Hun, you just make quitting the most important thing compared to everything you've mentioned.

    I've put on weight, after losing 3 stone!! And I'm just taking the lumps (and bumps :D) because quitting is more important.

    I miss my smoke fuelled chats with my friends - but quitting is more important.

    I want to feel that 'Aaaahhhhhh and breath and relax' moment when I've slipped out the back door while the kids are fighting and getting on my nerves.

    But staying alive for them is more important. I want to live and I want to live well. I don't want to die a slow painful laboured breathing death...

    .....I am more important.

    And so are you :)

  • Fight the power dont do it ,they are only thoughts drink water go for a walk do anything but DONT SMOKE believe me i have been where you are it does get easier ,as for OH he is lucky to have a job i wish i could have a bad day at work i have had no work for nearly 2 weeks and i m not smoking.

    it gets hard it gets easy it gets hard it gets and so on the beat goes on dont let it beat you 2 days is a great achivement just do an hour at a time .

    nic

    NEVER A TAKE ANOTHER PUFF

  • Lulabelle, it is you are right, the nicomonster trying to get you to feed him. Don't give in to the dipsh*t. Come on how often to us ladies give in :D

    I hope the link below to a thread helps you, it certianly helped me

    My Cig, my friend

  • Thanks!

    Thanks guys - amazing how hearing it from other people can help!:o

    I WANT to get to day 3, i want to get to day 3, i want to get to day 3!!!!

  • You WILL get to day 3, and beyond. Remember it's your choice not to smoke. You have taken control and are in control ;)

  • A 180??

    Not sure how i got from the first post to this one...but firstly feel much better and secondly, we got home and OH says "i think i''m gonna smoke" - tried to convince him not to as best i could and he's still thinking BUT right now i feel like even if he does....i wont!!!

    Of course it may be harder if/when he actually does smoke, but for now feeling strong and want to remember this feeling:cool:

  • Hi Lulabelle, you're doing fine. Keep at it. Just think how disgusted you'll be with yourself if you give in. And how proud you'll feel for as long as you quit - like forever!!!!!!!!!! Jeremy

  • So true

    3.Eating more than usual, not terrible but have stupid thoughts like "i know i'll start smoking again, lose weight and then when i stop i'll have lost enough to be able to put some on without worrying"

    I used this excuse to keep smoking for years, it's odd how you use these completely irrational arguments to justify smoking

    Keep going, you know it's the right thing to do

    Day 17 for me today

  • Day 19 for me and my snacking as calmed down now and i havent really put on any extra.I started eating more at first then decided to snack on sugar free gum and are still snacking on that....dont give in once you are through hell week it will get easier.

    xx

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