I got into work. New idiot boss asks why am i not talking? and it is only polite to reply. Says i am going to have to talk in a minute as he has had a complaint about me....It is something I've seen before that says i looked scruffy (to be honest, i might have done ,as am past caring really) and as well as the unannounced disiplinary hearing, he is now going to have to SPI me for this. Basically this means any further mistake, tiny error that they can find, is used to sack you. Perhaps i should have waited to be sacked, which seems to be something that is inevitably going to happen, but i said "Do you know what? I have had enough"
only unfortunately it didn't quite come out like that....
And then i left. To which he said unless i write a formal letter i am absent without leave. To which i also told him what a nice man he is and that i have really enjoyed my time (two weeks) working under him, or something like that. And i waved pleasantly at him, sort of.
Then i finally actually left.
Now comes the worser part. At this stage i have to say all i felt is relief, blessed relief. However fag related thoughts kept creeping in and i went to Morrisons, not to buy ciggies just to buy a drink, i successfully avoided the cigarette counter, but then i happened to see one of my smoking colleagues who asked why i was not in work, and then GAVE ME A CIGARETTE, which i unfortunately smoked.
It was not particularly great, but there was something nice about it., and I am now slightly worried. I have no job now so can't afford to smoke...
I haven't bought any. And it is just going to be an unfortunate slip.,...But maybe i will need a bit of help.