Ok had the worst mornig , I stopped twice at the tobacco shop, wanted to get out and buy a pack but I just sat there. I could not make myself get out of the car. I guess that is a good thing. But I realised that It wasnt me that was stopping me from gpoing in there cause this morning I couldve cared less about myself. I just kept seeing my sons face and how disappointed he would be in me...(((crying)))
I just cant do this I thought to myself. Why waist 40 days...But, who cares. I will smoke during work hours only and my son would never know. Who am I kidding, I cant be dishonest with him. Im so lost. I want a cig sooo bad. Why if its already 40 days? That should be long enough right? Y have the cravings come back????? Help!