Although I probably don't feel quite as bad today, I do feel that my motivation is waning
I'm starting a very low calorie diet tomorrow and went to pick up what I needed and even she said that it would be a lot easier to do if I smoked. Also, she said she gave up a year ago but feels no benefit from it (not sure why she's still quit though) and it got me thinking, I'm not saving money because I'm spending more money on treats to make me feel better that I would have on cigarettes and I'm not feeling much healthier :-(.
Also, I hate the way I can't enjoy myself, my dad's just given me £200 because he won some money at Cheltenham but I can't even be happy about that because I know that I can't have a fag, can't have a drink (because of the diet) and I'd happily pay the whole £200 for one cigarette.
Again, I'm so sorry my posts are so negative, some of you seem so happy and positive and I just wish I could feel some of that