I think I've finally quit! I used a different tactic this time which made the quit not so hard. I remember my brother-in-law telling me that when he quit after 30 years of smoking, he always kept a pack around, so that he had a choice along with each craving. He allowed himself 1 or 2 a day at first, if he really needed it. I didn't understand it then, because I wasn't a smoker at that time, but I understand it now.
I decided to try this method, and just knowing that I could have a smoke after work or whenever I really needed one took away the panic of "OMG!! I can't have a cigarette, ever!". I did well with 1 a day, and fought off my other cravings by constantly chewing gum (sometimes Nicorette). I never got the crazies, although I'm still battling each day not to buy a pack.
After 2 weeks or so of doing this, I slipped on the ice and hurt my back pretty badly. I smoked the last cigarette in my pack on the way to the hospital. I debated stopping off to buy a pack, but I was in too much pain to stop. I had the next 4 days off to rest my back, and never left the house. By the time the 4 days were up and I was back at work, I kept telling myself how stupid it would be to buy a pack after having gone 4 days without a cigarette. I thought about how much my fiance would hate it, and how I'd much rather deal with craving a cigarette for a few minutes than worry about oral or lung cancer. That was a month ago, and although I have bummed a few smokes, I still have not broken down and bought a pack. It's still a battle, but for the first time I feel like I'm winning, not the cigarettes!