I had a couple of cigarettes whilst drinking wednesday night..Woke up thursday and thought what an idiot i was...So i thought count it as a blip and carry on....But today i sliped again because of that empty insecure feeling and had a couple of puffs and went very dizzy....so i put it out.
I know i should not beat myself up over it.But i dont want to loose my quit and feel like im going to if i carry on doing this. I know im a plonka for doing it.lol
And since the wednesday slip up i stoped using my inhaler thinking that way would be better(big mistake). Yesterday went brill but today went rough im glad i did not enjoy that couple of puffs on a cigarette today:D.Yet the two i smoked wednesday night was ok from what i remember:eek:(i was a little drunk)
So now im going to stick to my inhaler i think because i cant trust myself without it just yet.My next steps well be to read more posts and read allen carrs book again and also listen to paul mckenas relaxation cd,As im feeling my horse could throw me off at any minute. So i think he needs more training