Day 9 - had my first irrational shouty rant and feel like a cow.

[nsd_user663_6105]

I thought I'd been doing so well at not being too grumpy this time round. I'd made it to day 9, and despite getting a bit irritated with a couple of things at work (actually, no change there then!), I'd managed to keep quite sane.

Until tonight.

I've just had a completely pointless shouty rant at OH about something he'd done (or rather not done) and feel like an absolute b***h. It wasn't anything important, but I just blew it up out of all proportion, and then when he said (quite reasonably) "where the hell did that come from?" I had the audacity to say something along the lines of "I've stopped smoking so I'm entitled to shout all I want and it's all your fault for winding me up". Urgh. Not nice of me.

[nsd_user663_5401]

We know, we know I had a go at my hubby for coughing on Friday!! At the time I thought I was totally in the right (it was a loud cough:eek but in hindsight I think I was slightly out of order

It will get better , well done on getting to day 10!!

[nsd_user663_5971]

Blast. After reading that I'd better 'fess up. The OH told me that she's fed-up of me coming home grumpy and I told 'hey, I've quit smoking, give me a break' - if looks could kill I'd never smoke again :o. Now I'd better go say sorry or it's a night in the spare room. And I thought I was doing so well today....

[nsd_user663_5956]

I was the absolute b***h from hell yesterday, blew up into an explosion over absolutely nothing, threw my mobile down, banged out the front door like a banshee down the lane into the forest and walked and walked !!!! I read it was a good craver stopper. Trouble was after long walk was still angry, but apolgised to OH who said " Darling I will go through any of this crap with you rather than watch you do chemo". What do you say, then cried for 2 hours and cant stop today, but havent had a craving for hours so I am celebrating my Day 7. Noooooo I am wrong I have just gone into Day 8.

Keep your chins up my lovelies, I never thought I would get this far.

[nsd_user663_3728]

Hi Cheesenmarmite

Well done you on day 10 and the double figure milestone

It's normal to be a bit up and down temper wise this early and I agree it's not a nice thing at all

When you're feeling calm why not sit Hubby down and explain how you feel and what's happening to you

Tell him you're sorry in advance for anything like this in the future and explain that you don't mean it and can't at the moment help it either but that it will get better and you'll return to your normal self again only better as you'll no longer be a smoker

At least that way he'll hopefully be able to understand these sudden outbursts and maybe even be ablr to help you through them

Love

Marg xx

[nsd_user663_6105]

Thanks everyone - I knew I wouldn't be alone on his one!!

Margareth - great advice thanks. OH actually quite himself a few years ago so in theory should be pretty understanding about it all. I did tell him the day before I quit that I apologised in advance if I got ratty at any point, but he appears to have forgotten it all! The irony being, it was his 'selective' memory that I got all in a huff about!

Anyway, am on day 10 now, and feeling pretty positive and relaxed about things.

[Cyprien]

There should be a forum support group like this for the OHs of people who are giving up smoking. They could share experiences and support each other through the difficult times.

Sue

[nsd_user663_5448]

First of all...Thank you so much for the laugh!! I love to hear about other's

being complete a%s$H@les!!! My poor husband has been through one heck of

a year dealing with my crap. Ahh..he does love me! First I had a really bad

bout of anxiety. So much to where I was going to different doctors, trying

different medications only to find out I am chemically sensitive so none of

that worked. He would have to take off work because I was absolutely afraid

to be alone...why I don't know. Now this...quiting smoking. I almost feel like I

may actually be crazy. I can see myself being happy one minute and the next

minute I feel like a complete animal. There is no short fuse for me right

now...at this point I don't have a fuse to be lit..I just explode with no

warning! And the thing about it is, is that I can feel and hear the anger

coming out of me but I don't do anything about it. I can even tell

myself.."hey lady, calm your ass down", but I don't listen to it. Then about 5

minutes later I am apologizing my butt off and hoping he can forgive me for

the 2nd time that morning. I am going to have him read this forum that way

he knows that I am not completely losing it and that this too will pass.

Thanks again for the good laugh...I LOVED it!