Here I go again....

[nsd_user663_5225]

Here I go again on my own, going down the only road I've ever known...... to coin an old "Whitesnake" song.....

ok. So here I am.

Some of you know me

Some of you don't

And the last week has truly been one of the worst of my life. Ended a relationship with my bf. Last night had a massive argument with a married couple that were mutual friends of both me and the bf. I'm not going to lie. I've smoked like a trooper for the last few days. I've cried numerous times. I've been looking at the negatives and not the positives and this has to stop....

SO

TOMORROW IS THE DAY!!!!!!

I did a month before and I know I can do this again.

I truly want to quit but the last week I have had what can probably be described as a mini breakdown. But the things that don't kill you only make you stronger.

I'm probably waffling but I've had a few glasses of wine. Had a good cry on the phone to my mum and then thought I should come on here to vent my feelings. I tried talking to my dog but he just looks at me like a mentalist and licks my face.

PP xx

[nsd_user663_4964]

It's hard when you are stressed, cos it's so easy to lapse back into addictive patterns that you have had for a long time. Just take it easy, and when you feel strong-re-embark! Destination non smoking land!

[nsd_user663_4990]

Well good luck this time around. Hope you crack it this one.

[nsd_user663_5310]

Come on back to the land of the living Pingu, you know you want to and we want you to, so unhitch your pony and ride on through.

Sorry was watching Calamity Jane yesterday (one of my top 10)

[nsd_user663_5225]

whip crack awaaaaaay murph. The old musicals are the best!

Right I've just had my last cigarette and am going to bin the rest of the pack before I go to work.

Down but not out

PP xx

[nsd_user663_5255]

PP - you can do it. You have done it before and you can do it again. You have had a really sh''ty week but as long as your determined then you can do it. Get your head in the right frame of mind and you will breeze through.

Come on hurry up and join us we are waiting.

Jx

[nsd_user663_4786]

Welcome back, great to see ya.

Stop talking to the dog if she is anything like mine she's a real bitch:eek:

[nsd_user663_5225]

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!!!!!

I am obviously not strong enough to do this thing CT yet!!

After work last night ended up having a couple of cigarettes with a glass of wine.

So....on with the patches again

(sigh!)

Am getting annoyed with myself for struggling so much when I was doing so well before all the poop hit the fan

PP xx

[nsd_user663_5028]

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!!!!!

I am obviously not strong enough to do this thing CT yet!!

After work last night ended up having a couple of cigarettes with a glass of wine.

So....on with the patches again

(sigh!)

Am getting annoyed with myself for struggling so much when I was doing so well before all the poop hit the fan

PP xx

Hiya

Keep going PP whatever suits your style you will get there

[nsd_user663_4786]

It is not how you do this that matters, just that you do.

You have had a really hard time, so give yourself a break, take one day at a time. It does not matter how many times you do day 1, we will all still be here to help.

Try and get some reading done today, it will help.

I am feeling full of PMA (some would say i am full of other things as well) so i am sending you loads of the stuff.

Rather large hug on the way too, don't say I didn't warn ya:eek:

[nsd_user663_5225]

Ok well I'm well into Day 1 (again!! ha)

Glad I've put the patch on. Really works for me and helps to take the edge off. Thanks for all the PMA and words of support guys.

If i stick with it then hopefully by Christmas

I will look like this: And not this:

[nsd_user663_5310]

Pingu its not if you stick with it, its when, you can do it girl, just think of the shoes

[nsd_user663_4121]

I am pretty sure the forum peeps (and everyone else for that matter) will much prefer the left version

Welcome back to your day 1, Pingu. Well done getting back to your quit so quickly. You know the drill...... read, post, and have fun..... and if you feel down, we'll cheer you up! Good luck, okay!

[nsd_user663_5356]

Well done and sorry you going thru a really crap time at the moment.

U sound very determend tho. I had to laugh about you and the dog tho lol

[nsd_user663_5048]

good luck this time mate

rembering odd things to me helps my confidence, so in ur case it could be sommert like, im using penguin power to help quit & ill do it for the penguins...ya'know, odd things like that, helps me, never know it may help you

& again, good luck mate, do it, make us & the penguins pround lol