Hello all. I'm on my 57th day and don't really think about smoking much except when I'm on the forum. One thing I've noticed since I escaped is that I respect myself a lot more. It's been almost two months and during that time my confidence has been rising every day. This week I applied to uni, something I would never have done if I was still smoking because I thought I couldn't handle the shame of failing the entrance exam, or I couldn't handle hours of sitting there doing the exam because I'd want to smoke. My entrance exam is on Monday and it'll be difficult so I'm not holding my breath but I reckon it's worse not to try than to try and fail cos then I'd have failed before I'd even tried, if you can make any sense of that :rolleyes:
One thing I have been struggling with is a bit of depression. The depression might still be part of this process but could also be due to the leaves already changing color here. I suffer from seasonal affective disorder and every autumn/winter I go quite nutty (Finland is dark and cold). I'll have to go to the doctor and get myself on medication. I will not start smoking again just because of autumn depression. Anyone else got experience with this sort of thing?