Although I'm still thinking about smoking way too much and it's getting on my nerves, I am starting to believe that I've actually done it.
I woke up this morning and my first thought was, "I'm a non smoker!"
More than that I'm no longer dependant on nicotine. I can't believe it after all these years of being an addict, at last I'm no longer dependant on nicotine.
I know there will be triggers and times when I miss smoking but this is only because I havn't sorted my head out yet.
I've got to keep telling myself, "You didn't ENJOY smoking, you did it because you were addicted to nicotine and therefore HAD TO DO IT".
The memories of feeling good when I had a ciggie are false and I've got to work hard to undo these false memories.
I'm not exhausted anymore, although I am still looking forward to the day when a whole day goes by and I don't think about smoking even once. I'm looking forward to the day when smoking is a distant memory of something I used to do.
I can do this, You can do this, it is hard but it is possible and it feels great.
How are the rest of you? Hope your all feeling strong. It's a tough journey but probobly the best one we'll ever take. It's the journey to freedom and I feel I can see the light at the end of the very smokey tunnel that I've been in for a very, very long time.