I am a *******, save me from myself

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh I am still doing it, I had the odd one everyday and I am actually thinking of buying some tabacco, I am pee'd off with myself to be honest. I am in such a mood, I had planned my night out ahead of me to do something when I get in which would keep me oocupied, now I can't do it (something else has come up) so it's all gone tits up and making me crave.

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  • I could cry, I am so upset :(

  • Ahhh you fell for the odd one everyday type of thing. There is never just one cigarette for most addicts. Some folk can be 'casual smokers' but they're not really, they're just smokers who have to control their intake a helluvalot. Sorry that your quit is going to hell in a handbasket. Hope you can stay strong and stop the odd one. Wish you luck.

  • Hi Hadenough,

    Sorry you feel like you are losing your way at the moment.

    I know only too well 'the just one' routine. Has finished many a quit for me that one!

    Perhaps some serious reading will help get you back in the right frame of mind.

    We're all here for you :)

    Love Gaynor xx

  • Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh I am still doing it, I had the odd one everyday and I am actually thinking of buying some tabacco, I am pee'd off with myself to be honest. I am in such a mood, I had planned my night out ahead of me to do something when I get in which would keep me oocupied, now I can't do it (something else has come up) so it's all gone tits up and making me crave.

    Hi Hadenough :)

    I'm sorry you seem to have lost your way at the moment, having had the odd one as you say everyday and thinking of buying tobacco. this is the oldest trick in the book for the Nico :eek: Demons

    Also sorry you're plans for tonight have been derailed but it happens at times to all of us you know this as you know how to beat the craves

    I think you need to go back to basics here No I don't mean Day 1 at all

    What I mean is read, read and then read some more as you did before read the posts on here, use the links to other sites and reaffirm your reasons for quitting in the first place

    All you have done here is lost sight of your goal thanks to those sneaky b.......d Nico :eek: Demons OK

    If you feel like a good cry then have one it will help to relieve the tension for you at least

    When you have done all that come back and tell us how you feel I think you'll find that you feel better for it and it has a least got to be worth a try rather than caving in completely You will be so mad with yourself if you do that

    The reason you're getting these craves is that you have been feeding that addiction just a little every time you have that just/odd one when you stop doing this you will truly be free

    I hope I've not hurt or offended you with my bluntness that is/was not my intention at all I just want to help if I can

    Love

    Marg xxxxxxxxxx

  • This might sound a bit harsh.

    You are either a smoker or a non smoker, (no in between)

    Volumes are a red herring, having the odd one or regular one is no different from having 10 or 15 a day, you are still feeding you are still feeding your habit.

    Pick a quit date and start over, it is IMHO the only way!

  • Thanks guys, I am guessing Sunday is going to be a best quit day for me, I didn't smoke Sunday, then I had one about ten Monday night, not even sure why. I was so fit I have run that many races even a very hard (very hilly) half marathon and I did all that after I stopped back in Jan. I don't know why I have started again, I wish i knew then I could say I can avoid that situation, but I don't even know why. I feel sooooo disappointed in myself :(.

    On Friday I am going to see ACDC at wemberly so I will probably be tempted to smoke if I am drinking, I think it would be best to get that out the way and start a fresh on Sunday, in the mean time I can read the easy way (agggggaaaaiiiiiinnnn). I am really upset, why, why, why, why :confused:

  • Enjoy ACDC and good luck for Sunday.

  • Thanks Nic :)

  • Thanks hun, I have fecked it up already, I am gutted. I gave up for a good five/six monthe this year and I had done so well and today I have messed it up, because I got wound up.

  • Just the one...

    Hi Hadenough-don't think we've met before-welcome to the forum, you really are in the best place now.

    I was just like you when I first quit, thought I could stop for a while and then just have the odd 'social' smoke. So glad I found this forum though as I now know that there is no such thing for an addict. I know I'm just one puff away from being a full time smoker again-and I definitely don't want that!

    Can only reiterate what others have said-knowledge is the key-understand your addiction (yes, that's what it is) and you're halfway to beating it.

    I found the following articles from Whyquit really helpful:

    whyquit.com/joel/Joel_04_16...

    whyquit.com/joel/Joel_04_18...

    each one will only take you a couple of minutes to read, but may well save you hours of heartache and craving.

    Best of luck mate, remember we're all here to help you-every step of the way.

  • LMAO WTF?????? that's all I'm saying :D

  • margareth is doing a hell of a good work, keeping us motivated giving us hugs and love and occasionally using the iron fists, sorry boots when needed

    Hi Shahnoor :D

    Seems my boots/shoes are becoming famous on here not used my fists yet but I'm sure i can get some good hard gloves if I try :D :D

    Love

    Marg xxxxxxxxxx

  • Hi Chrissie :D

    Thanks the theatre was really good the show lasted for nearly 4 hours and for an amateur group with lots of kids rhat was brilliant

    OK I'll hold off getting the gloves for now as long as you behave reasonably well :p ;)

    Love

    Marg xxxxxxxxx

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