I have been a blinkin idiot. I smoked 2.5 cigarettes yesterday.
Was at a family do (big smoking family) and was very, very drunk. No excuse but I would not have had one sober.
I don't really know what to say but I really had let my guard down. I knew it was going to be one of my biggest triggers cos a family party was the ruination of a quit 5 years ago but I still drank wine and vodka and ended up asking my cousin for a draw then a couple of fags.
If I am honest with myself (and you lot) I could feel it coming. I had stopped reading, stopped coming on here and was generally a bit miserable in my quit. Was finding it hard and was quite moody about it all. I wonder if I was just looking for an excuse.......
I feel really bad about it and am also very hungover in work today. Not fun.
Don't know what to do now. I don't want to start smoking again but am worried that as I 'enjoyed' them I will lose my quit.
Does anyone have any advice cos I am really worried.