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Day 13, newbie, swaying between homicidal and suicidal...even the cats are worried.

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Hello! very new to the site, but needing some intelligent words from people that have been through this bit. (my mother chirping that "oh well it's disgusting why would you want to?.....is not seeminly helpful atm....)

I am now 52 mins into day 13 (can you tell I am still clock watching?....) and am finding it getting harder and harder. I have just driven past a little bunch of hoodies near the local park with the window down to try and passive smoke at 10mph!

Please can someone tell me that this is going to start getting easier and soon preferably before I get arrested for soliciting chavs?!!

My children tell me that the car smells 'nice' again and that they like the fact that I am not forever "just popping outside for 5 darlings" and I feel like this should be enough motivation for me, but once they are in bed I start pacing up and down and kicking things (my cats now move faster than they did! lol) and by midnight I am nearly howling at the wall.....

I am doing this cold turkey - I know I have buckets of will power (aka as a stubborn bi**h....) but I seriously did not expect to find it this hard and getting harder. I have never wanted to try and stop before - is there something I can do or think that will help?

I am a take it on the chin, stiff upper lip kind of girl, so anyone that can give some blunt pratical advice - please please speak up!!

thanks!

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Hiya pink minx..... Sounds just like me at 2 weeks and believe me if it had continued that way, I would be so way back to smoking.... another week or so and things will calm down! So hang in there just a bit longer!

You sound like a tough one :D but believe me, willpower is not the best way..... it's good here and there but the way to make the quit easier is to change how you regard your smoking habit/addiction..... if you 'miss' them and think of them in a nostalgic way, you will feel deprived and get more and more pissed off since you can't smoke.... it can escalate to the point of you going out and buying them...... the trick for me was to beat it into my head (and this took a while) that I was NOT missing out and that I had everything to gain..... it got me through the tough moments.

Life now is way back to normal but when I catch myself thinking 'I want one', I have to remind myself of this even now..... it is easy now though. What you're going through is normal and it WILL get easier..... otherwise most of us would not be here!!! You can do it! Get mad, cry, be a bit bitchy, come on here and vent :D You'll be back to nice and smiling soon again :)

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Oh.... and welcome to the forum :D

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Hi, Pink Minx and welcome to the forum. Bella is right, the best way to beat nicotine addiction is to understand what it does to you and how you will feel thtoughout your quit. Read the links at the bottom of my post. Read everything that you can and I really think it will help you. I smoked for 35 years 1 to 2 packs a day and quit CT. You can do this.

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Awwww thank you both.

I keep picturing it as fighting what my partner refers to as the nicotine bitch! sadly I think the nicotine bitch has now been joined by a sugar bitch and a Mcdonalds bitch!!

Thanks for the links, I will go and have a look - partly I hadn't, because there seemed to be so much on the net and it was a bit bewildering! If there are sites that people have found helped then they are deffo worth checking out first! thanks!

Having just woken up sweating i am off to shower. My partner was right this site is fab!!!

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Hi Pink Minx :)

Welcome to the forum and well done on the decision to quit possibly one of the most important you will ever make and you will be losing nothing but you will regain control of your life and that has to be good

You will find all the help and support you need on here as we all help each other just like a family we are here for you every step of the way cheering the good days and sympathiseing with the bad but the good far outweigh the bad

Read the posts on here you will find a lot of tips and advice and in the signatures of a lot you will find links to other sites just click on them Here are 2 I find very good to start you off whyquit.com and woofmang.com Read, read and then read some more as the more you read and learn about why you smoked and about your addiction the easier your quit will be

Well done you on 13 days quit CT you're doing really well and yes it will get easier for you very soon there are loads of really helpful links in lots of our signatures the 2 in mine I found particularly good You need to get your head right about this and then it is much easier to cope with Promise We've all been where you are now and will help you as much as we can Just hang in there

Post often to let us know how you're doing, to rant, rave have a moan whatever you like pretty much anything goes on here OK

Love

Marg xxxxxxxx

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hi Pink

I'm on day 14 as of today!!! I used patches for the first week then gave those up too, just wanted nicotine OUT of my body.

Yes yes yes yes yes yes yes I do hear you! I read your first post laughing cos I thought "I could have written that!" I spent my first week thinking I'd developped Tourettes, the amount of swearing I did.

Last night I had a complete meltdown. My hubby is still smoking and having to watch him go outside for a smoke is AWFUL. The lighters are still in the house, and the ashtrays are still outside (we haven't smoked in the house for years) and it was driving me NUTS. I burst into tears and asked him to hide everything .... OK, I'm waffling. I waffle a lot these days.

You mentioned the sugar and the McD's. Yep, I pretty much inhale Mars bars and Minstrels right now. I refuse to worry about it, i know my metabolism is all screwy at the moment, nictone was my spoon for a while, in time I will start to notice when I'm properly hungry again and will find something else to do to take my mind off the nicotine rather than eating chocolates. Right now, I'm coming off a pretty serious drug so a bit of overeating for a few weeks is worth it. And if i have to buy bigger clothes then I'll buy bigger clothes. My dress size is NOT a reason to give myself lung cancer.

And I still want one ... but the one I want is the really enjoyable one, but I can't have just one, I have to have all the other horrible ones that come with it, the "I shall obey" ones when i wandered like a robot to my fags. I don't want to be a robot. I want to be in charge of me.

Phew .... sorry, i do tend to ramble a bit. Hope your day is going well. Keep it up :) :) :)

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Welcome Pink Minx 13 days is brilliant.

We have all been in a similar place to you so we do understand how you feel. I agree completely with Bella, read, read and read some more, change what you thought was true about cigarettes and find out what is real. Allen Carr's book is also a good read, there is a free one on his website at the moment.

Good luck, keep up the good work.

Jackie

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welcome.

there are two things that have really helped with this quit,where other quits have failed.

1 this board,the folks here are wonderful,there is always someone around for encouragement.

2 allen carr e book,i just listen and listen,

its all about learning why we need to smoke in the first place.

keep coming here,get educated on the evil weed,it is doable,you can do it.

doey x

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keep going darling, you are in the early stages of completely changing your life!

dont give up now OK:p

LOVE

JAMIEXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

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I don't ever want another day like this again in my life!! I have had road rage, toddler rage, macaroni cheese rage, my beloved partner who has been nothing but HUGELY supportive has just got it in the neck for not physically being able to be in 2 places 300 miles apart.....

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Tis only a matter of time til they wheel me away....surely....

I have found your comments really helpful - and whoever it was who is on day 14 - fancy a whinge buddy?!! lol

It is so helpful hearing from others who are at the same stage as well as those who are confident that it WILL get better!!

I do feel that standing at the cooker raging at a saucepan and then promptly bursting into tears maybe a tad over dramatic!!!

big hugs all

Pink_minx aka drama llama!!

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