Hey! Just past 21 days, I've been feelin good about the whole thing, going CT, I am happy I am doing this and I never want to go back again! All this positive feelings are deep down there somewhere though, because in reality all I am letting out right now is ANGER!!! OMG, I don't recognize myself! I am taking a break from the people I care about, I told mt BF today, in a good moment (probably the only one for today), that I understand I am beeing absolutely impossible and I just want a few days on my own cause the stuff I am saying to him are so mean and I am being such a... pain!!
Ok, all this was expected though, that's what he said! Was it really? Sorry, Margareth (if you are reading this), I insist on the subject, but I feel so bad about who I am right now. I have even been adviced to smoke one and just stop being such o b....! I won't and that's the last thing i want! So what I am trying to say is, i know being angry was expected, but I always thought it will be sometimes in the first few days, not now! I did have a few episodes back then (nothing comparing with the ones I have now), and I thought that was it! Isn't to late for this? I am just trying to find out what my problem is, and if is not the quitting to find out why am I so unhappy for!
Thanks a lot guys!