I have been doing okay, inspite of some dummy moments...
Yes, I too have been (in the past) around the 90 day mark when I caved in... or so I thought. I had actually not caved in as much as I had made a choice to start again, because let's face it I was well past the addiction mark (on any level). However, I had convinced myself (back then ) that it would help me cope with stress. AND to those that have thought of caving... I did not forget how amazing I thought the smoking was going to be and how very disappointed I was in the end. Yes, I got that elusive headrush... but that was about it... followed by rage at having submitted. I also thought (incorrectly) that it would instantly clear up the constipation... in truth it took several days of smoking before it cleared it up... at which point I was doomed again...
I am not saying that I have overcome this thing... and I am not saying that I won't fail or slip this time (as there is always that possibility), but I am aware of many of the pitfalls, having been there before and hope to endure when I hit bump in the road... If I should break my bond with quitting to have a slip then I am determined (knowing I can and will) to immediately revert to CT to overcome the 3 days and carry-on.... Incidentally one-puff has never been enough for me to collapse... I still don't advocate anyone try.... but... just for the record...
I do NOT have or keep any smokes in the house! Even though I do have some for my Mom in storage, but I follow several key rules... (1) no open packages (somehow having closed packs stops me... lol... odd I know).... (2) they are not within reach at all. I live in a condo and keep them in the basement locked, thus forcing myself to go for a bit of a walk before I can get to them... the path of shame.... lol... which has helped in the past as I turned back after thinking about it. It also prevents the drunken or instintive reach for one when I am not paying attention. I learned that during the last quit.
Just some thoughts.... 1 month tomorrow...
Thanks to all for your sweet and caring support...