Ok, so I started smoking for the first time aged 11, I was encouraged by my sister and brother and as I came from a family of smokers I didn't think it was anything unusual.
I quit for the first time aged 18.... I gave up because I was having panic attacks and found that the cigarettes acted as a stimulant...did it cold turkey with no problems... but I was only smoking 5 a day.... this lasted 1 year before I relapsed
The second time I quit was aged 22 when I got pregnant with my daughter... didn't have any trouble giving up because I had morning sickness which made smoking phyically impossible.... I stayed off them for 7 years, I only started again because I played a joke on someone... this joke involved taking ONE drag of a fag.... within a week I had 4 lighters and was smoking 10 a day... this really broke my heart.
I gave up again at 31 for a year... dont remember what the motivator was... the reason I started again was because my friend left her cigarettes at my house... a little demon in my head was telling me to have one... BIG MISTAKE!!
So here we are... I'm three weeks in on cold turkey.... the reason I'm giving up is predominently to do with my children, they hate it... then there's my mum who has been fighting cancer, it seems somewhat insulting that she is fighting to live, and yet my dirty habit could kill me.... then there's the issue of money.... I was smoking over 10 a day, so my cigarette bill was well over Â£130 a month.... thats just CRAZY.
This time has been much harder... I hadn't planned to give up at that point ( was gonna give up early in the new year) but I had the flu and it turned into Bronchitis so I couldn't smoke because it hurt and burnt my chest everytime I tried.... I have had terrible moody moments, I'm eating like a pig and the cravings can be ridciulous at times... but I haven't caved.... and don't intend to.
I am determined not to let another cigarette touch my lips EVER AGAIN!!