Day 21 Eat Sleep Crave Repeat

Hiya

Today, well starting last night has been one of *those* days - am swapping from feeling positive and good about my quit to craving like hell. :mad:

Have been using my pretend fag a lot (and look a berk I know) but it is helping. what didn't help was forgetting my patch again until mid morning so maybe that's got something to do with it?

It's annoying - have grasped that I didn't enjoy smoking, and really don't want to go baco to spending all that money on fags but the craves are getting on my wick.

Am feeling bloated too which isn't helping.

Have worked it out in my head like this:

It's a choice. Right at this moment the easiest option would be to nip over the road and buy fags and start smoking again.*BUT* if I took that, in years to come I'd be making the choice of whether I want chemo or not - and as an ex-heavy smoker that would be pretty likely, which is far harder than dragging myself through this.

So I'll resign myself to "smoking" my made up ciggie and feeling a bit poo for a while to avoid that.

Maybe the curse of 3 weeks is coming early?

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  • Lol bizarreness, posting on here has already hardened my resolve :D

    Fornicate off Marlboro Man.

    Well that and that it's hailing ;)

  • Hi Gemma,

    I forgot to put my patch on yesterday, got up late for work so rushing aound.

    I must say I craved more yesterday morning than I have all my quit::mad:

    Im sure it will pass as soon as the nicotine kicks in.

    Anyway Mina has given me a head ache with her stats

    so im off to the pub coming:D

  • Hi Gemma,

    I forgot to put my patch on yesterday, got up late for work so rushing aound.

    I must say I craved more yesterday morning than I have all my quit::mad:

    Im sure it will pass as soon as the nicotine kicks in.

    Anyway Mina has given me a head ache with her stats

    so im off to the pub coming:D

    Hiya :)

    Ooh it feels really dodgy doesn't it?

    Glad you got through though - Kat nagged me into putting spare patches and gum in my bag, car and desk so luckily last time I did it, I could nip to the loo and stick one on!!

    Oooh and yes please!!

  • When we get to the Penthouse we will definitely go to the pub,

    Now that's a great incentive:D

  • Hey Gemma stick with your made up ciggie it'll get u through . Dont worry about how berky u look. I use an inhalator , it looks like a tampon but it gets me through.

    Mash x

  • LOL Mash :)

    What an engaging image!! :D

    Hang on in there Gemma. It'll pass, it always does.

  • When we get to the Penthouse we will definitely go to the pub,

    Now that's a great incentive:D

    Oooh it's a fab one :D :D

    Gems, I'm finding it proper hard today as well but we can do this, even if we have to drag our selves through it, we will see tomorrow as a non smoker hey :o

    Aww that's a shame Cupster!!

    We'll both drag ourselves through though and still be sweet smelling nonsmokers tomorrow!!

  • Hey Gemma stick with your made up ciggie it'll get u through . Dont worry about how berky u look. I use an inhalator , it looks like a tampon but it gets me through.

    Mash x

    Oh LOL they do look a bit unfortunate :p

    It does the trick though and that's what matters!!

    x

    LOL Mash :)

    What an engaging image!! :D

    Hang on in there Gemma. It'll pass, it always does.

    Yeah it will, and I'll be proud for not caving in :D

  • we will sweetheart, think of the taste, that bitter nasty taste that's still there even in the morning when you wake up, yuck! Not for us eh :)

    Oh it's minging isn't it?

    Don't know if somehow I got aware of it, or if they changed something but my last fags tasted really strongly of burning paper - not nice!!

    We're not going there any more!!

  • Aww Gem:( today may be crappy but tomorrow could be different,will be different you,ll see.

    Dig deep Hun and remember how you got through those other bad days earlier on in our quit...

    I want to see you here tomorrow to celebrate 3wks:D:D

    You,v helped me more than you realise.....you can do it come on x

    And I want to see your non smoking app again tomorrow....it. Must look amazing now

  • You are doing great Gemma just got to keep going :D. Pub sounds to good to miss :)

  • It's like it's never going to get better or the blasted craving go away......but the you read about all the long term quitters and you realise it will.....soon.:D

  • Aww Gem:( today may be crappy but tomorrow could be different,will be different you,ll see.

    Dig deep Hun and remember how you got through those other bad days earlier on in our quit...

    I want to see you here tomorrow to celebrate 3wks:D:D

    You,v helped me more than you realise.....you can do it come on x

    And I want to see your non smoking app again tomorrow....it. Must look amazing now

    Oooh I'll be here hun, I'm not going back to being a smoker!!

    Just got to chew my way through it and keep taking it one hour at a time!!

    Oooh and yes I'll do some pics of my apps :D They're scary and amazing all in one :eek:

    Tomorrow though, we'll both be 3 full weeks free!!

    It's like it's never going to get better or the blasted craving go away......but the you read about all the long term quitters and you realise it will.....soon.:D

    Oooh yes that's it exactly.

    i do remember it getting better though and looking at the penthouse people i *know* it will!!

  • You are doing great Gemma just got to keep going :D. Pub sounds to good to miss :)

    Oooh the pub is a hust incentive, lol

    Am going to keep plugging on - maybe blast Nic out of my head with some loud music?

  • Gemma, you are doing fab! Day 21 already :)

    Hope your horrible craves go away soon x

  • Gem u smoke tampons, listen to spice girls,dance round the room in your undies do whatever it takes to not smoke x

    LOL

    Don't think I'll smoke tampons but the Spice Girls are a definite posibility!!

    Steve, Molly and Kat would have a fit if they could hear :p

  • Oooh the pub is a hust incentive, lol

    Am going to keep plugging on - maybe blast Nic out of my head with some loud music?

    Good plan. Singing helps lol :)

  • Gemma, you are doing fab! Day 21 already :)

    Hope your horrible craves go away soon x

    Aww thanks hun!!

    How's you? x

  • Good plan. Singing helps lol :)

    Lol yes!!

    best keep to singing in my car though 'cos I can't carry a tune in a bucket :p

  • Lol yes!!

    best keep to singing in my car though 'cos I can't carry a tune in a bucket :p

    I'm clearly much more selfish as I've been singing on and off all day. Kevin has a headache hahaha :D

  • I'm clearly much more selfish as I've been singing on and off all day. Kevin has a headache hahaha :D

    Oooh keep going :D If it makes you feel good then it is good :D

  • I'm good ta! Yesterday was a bit rubbish, struggled a bit, but loads easier today thank goodness.

    3 weeks tomorrow :)

  • I'm good ta! Yesterday was a bit rubbish, struggled a bit, but loads easier today thank goodness.

    3 weeks tomorrow :)

    I'm glad today's better!!

    We're going to get ups and downs but son it'll be all ups!!

    YAy for 3 weeks :D

    Sorry you are feeling pants today Gem :( remember the difference 24 hours can make, tomorrow is a new day and you will be pleased with yourself for reaching another day smoke free :) keep going hun we are going all the way to the penthouse ready for the biggest party ever! xxx

    Aww thanks hun :)

    Am on the up again now it's just one of those annoying things for the early days I guess.

    Oooh and I'm looking forward to the party already :D xxx

  • You guys are showing all the qualities needed to achieve this :D

    Day 21 Gemma flippin eck 3 weeks already!!!!!!!!!!!!:D:D

    Yes there are craves,yes there will be grim days where you feel there is just grey ahead and you are tempted to chuck in the towel :( but you will already have had glimpses and maybe even hours at a time of how good being a non smoker can be :D hold onto those images cos they get more frequent,richer and deeper :cool:

    I'm amazed how fast it's gone :eek:

    Was feeling really bad before, Nic was convincing me of all kinds but luckily it didn't work and I haven't smoked :D

    I will do this and it will be good in the end without the stinky fags - which I didn't even enjoy any more!!

  • Keep going Gem you can do this and you will be so proud of yourself that you have control over your life

    Xxxxxxxx

  • Keep going Gem you can do this and you will be so proud of yourself that you have control over your life

    Xxxxxxxx

    Thanks hun, I'll definitely stick with it!!

    I refuse to be ruled by sticks of shredded up leaves :mad::mad::mad:

    How's you? xxxx

  • Gemma-lou, you are doing great girl :)

    Blimey 3 - yes THREE - weeks now. How great is that.

    This Penthouse will need an extension for all of us next year :D:D

  • I JUST LOVE THIS. :)

    Hang in there :)

    J x :)

    It gave me a giggle :D

    Gemma-lou, you are doing great girl :)

    Blimey 3 - yes THREE - weeks now. How great is that.

    This Penthouse will need an extension for all of us next year :D:D

    Oooh it will 'cos we're going to fill the place!!

    Aww and thanks hun :)

  • About to embark on your fourth week sweetpea, how fantastic is that?!:D

    So proud of you hon, particularly with the atrocious weather we've been having, I know how that plays into your anxiety, it's been AWFUL, but you've stuck with it regardless, clung on tenaciously to your quit despite a very stressful couple of weeks so WELL DONE!!!:D:D:D

    Time to crack on hon, closing in on that first month now!:cool:

    It's fab, and I'm feeling a lot better now!!

    Aww thanks, the weather is a big anxiety trigger - and I've been using my liquid stuff a lot to try to knock it out which has helped :D would have been easy to smoke but that wouldn't make the weather better, it would just mean I need to go out in it.

  • LOL

    Don't think I'll smoke tampons but the Spice Girls are a definite posibility!!

    Steve, Molly and Kat would have a fit if they could hear :p

    On this occasion, you're forgiven.

    You're doing blo0dy great, G :)

  • Hey sweetie pie :) How are you getting on today?

    Happy week three!! I hope Nasty Nic has left you alone this morning. Don't forget that frying pan if he starts to make naughty suggestions in your ear ;)

    xxx

  • Your doing great Emma, we are in this together.

    just curious: do you live in Cornwall , Ontario or Britain?

    Helene

    Thanks :)

    I'm in Britain and it rains a lot!!

    Hey sweetie pie :) How are you getting on today?

    Happy week three!! I hope Nasty Nic has left you alone this morning. Don't forget that frying pan if he starts to make naughty suggestions in your ear ;)

    xxx

    Hi hun, um I'm worse tbh, think i spoke way too soon about this being the one for me :(

    xxx

  • Thanks :)

    I'm in Britain and it rains a lot!!

    Hi hun, um I'm worse tbh, think i spoke way too soon about this being the one for me :(

    xxx

    Don't you lose face now! This IS the one for you. Any quit can be the one for you, but it's YOU that has to make it that way!

    Stay positive and don't lose your hope :) xxx

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