The last time I stopped smoking I seemed to sail through it, until that dreaded day when I picked one up. This time is so very different, I cant tell you how hard it is. This morning all I want to do is go to the shop and buy a pack.
I wont of course but Ive started singing the dreaded nursery rhymes again, they seemed to do the trick and block out the wailing of the nicodemon last time, Im hoping it will do the same this time.
Maybe if I have to fight for my quit this time I wont be so easy to fool into thinking I can have one and just go back to stopping, because believe me that doesnt happen.
I was reading an older post by someone who has probably left the group by now, in it they say that they have been quit for a year but had the odd one when drunk. How on earth do they do that? Have one now and again and then just go on with their quit! I had one and it was my downfall.
Today is day 3 and I know the 3's are tough, but I didnt feel like this last time.
I will not smoke today! I wont! I bloody, bloody WONT!