Feeling really crap tonight ,
well since tea time, i am snappy ,moody, a right -itch !!. hateful ,depressed, all these emotions in one.i just keep having thoughts like just have one is it worth going through all this shit, yet i know smoking will not make me feel better, i dont want to smell,cough,not breathe properly,waste money......the list goes on and on.
i feel like im on this journey alone and i am lost at the cross roads . hope this makes sense to someone.
everytime my husband comes near me he stinks of cigs and it makes me feel sick and i feel bad as i am pushing him away. but i think he knows what to expect with it not being my first quit. i am sure he is thinking she will give up soon. ( but i wont, i can not fail, ) so i will come on here and just moan and type untill its of my chest. so please excuse me !!!.
hot choc needed .
I really hate what this drug has done to me and how long it has controlled me and taken from me.