The hardest bit...

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...I have read on here is the first three days. So I have read over and over. Yet, on another thread titled 'Day 8 and its getting harder...' or something similar, nearly everyone who replied agreed day 8 to 12 ish are the hardest :confused: I must admit I'm really struggling again at the mo after an ok ish day yesterday 'cos I got some crap going on but if days 8 to 12ish really are the hardest then I fear I may cave because right now, its taking every ounce of my willpower to not go down the shop and be done with this tiresome fight. I'm getting fed up of fighting it now and my willpower is becoming zilch. At the end of the day I just want a cigarette. I may start my quit again in a few weeks time when I feel in a better frame of mind. Maybe THAT will be better. We'll see.

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Hi Maddy

Im not one for giving advise, after all im no expert but having now made it to day 13 i think i can comment on your thoughts !!!

When i set out to quit smoking i made a promise to myself not to think whatever happens to someone, will happen to me. ie - Just because i have a bad day 18 this doesnt mean you will.....

Each individual is different, we all go through bad days but its all in the mind.

If you say im going to have a bad three days, chances are you will !!!!!

Days 8, 9, 10, 11 and 12 have been my best days so far and its getting easier.

Your over the hard bit and you have done so great, be positive!!!!!

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Maddy NOOOO....................Don't cave in now.........up are doing so well!!!!!

The thing is everyone is different in their quit. Just cos Jo Bloggs had a really bad Day 3 or Day 8 or Day 101......it doesn't mean you will have one too.

Giving up is never easy. I should know, I've done it often enough I really don't want to depress you here, but why do you think some people cave in after a year or so? Because Ol Nic will always be there TRYING to tempt you. He knows how much easier it is to recruit a former smoker, than a total newbie. Don't give in to him, Maddie, you have too much to lose. You don't want to repeat those first few days again, do you?

Be strong girl, go try some boxer on your Wii - I promise you won't have any puff left in you lol!

PS/ It DOES get easier, I promise

I have been quit for 2 Weeks, 5 Days and 18 hours (19 days). I have saved £98.74 by not smoking 395 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 8 hours and 55 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 17/02/2008 22:00

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Thank you meeru and Barbara. I don't think I can do it though. I know these are piss poor excuses but I am having problems with my bf/ex? Dunno what to call him! My dog is being sooooooo disobedient and its all getting to me wayyyyyyyyy more than it should. I know, I'm pathetic. As if a cigarette can put everything right..hell, anything right, but having a cigarette will help to make me feel better.

I'm not as good as you guys. You all must have the odd problem and are somehow able to cope. Why can't I? Howcome, I have gone nearly a week and now I'm about to crumble? I feel sooooooooo damn frustrated its unbelievable. I feel so down that all I have done today is fight the urge to cry. I feel irritable and everything else that goes with not smoking but I also now feel a deep sense of disappointment in myself because I feel I know deep down that by tonight, I will have succumbed. So I feel really crap about that too. I just don't think I can do it. Ever. If I can't do it now then I'll be kidding myself that I will ever be able to do it in the future :confused:

Oh I'm sorry for going on. I should save my whinging for my blog but I guess I have to let you guys know, and those in Team FM that they are about to be a member short!

Going out for a bit. I hope all you guys out there are doing much better than me. Keep going

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Maddy, nooooooooooooo! hot bath, long walk, gallon of water, thirty two lollipops, anything but caving, we need you on here just as much as you say you need us... its hard, for every one of us, very hard, but you know how important quitting was to you in the beginning, and its you that has to deal with yourself if you smoke again... if it really is bothersome, maybe a tiny chew of nic gum or something would be a better thought then a smoke... at least then the only major chemical is nicotine... and not the tons of evil stuff that comes with nic in a smoke... I personally don't think you'll feel better after it... and in the long run, definetly not... stick with us, its hurting me just as much, and whine to your hearts content... i'd rather hear that you are having a hard time too, then to hear you succumbed to our past evil lives. Take care, chin up,

Vike.

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Thank you everyone and I apologise once again for my moaning If only a couple of things in my life could be sorted out so I could be more settled and happy it would be a helluva lot easier.

I know you guys have your hard times too and I really admire you all for not giving up 'giving up'. I will feel I have let myself down I know but hopefully not for too long if I pick up my quit again in a week or so. Assuming I do give in. I dunno. I'm just going mad on the Wii at the mo trying to keep my mind occupied but I have something on my mind that is getting me down and until I get that sorted I guess giving up Cigs is going to be that bit harder Arrghhh

I don't want to let the team down either! I'm trying to use the 'team' as a booster to in my resolve to beat this addiction and it does help to an extent. Some times more so than others.

Ok, I am going to TRY and not have a cig just for tonight. Only tonight! Not thinking about tomorrow...

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That was the perfect call Maddy, just don't smoke today! And tomorrow, you will have a sleep break to come up with tomorrows decision! Good luck sticking with it!

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Thanks Viking and Mojo

Yeah you're right regarding the 'giving up' thing. Rather, I'm doing away with a drug that tries to claim your health and your purse/wallet.

Thanks for your support everybody. I really, really, really appreciate it and I doubt very much I would have come a week without your help. However, I'm going to stay away from this site for a couple of days in an attempt to not remind myself about cigarettes Mind, they're all I can think about anyway but maybe if I avoid smoking related sites it might help with getting the fags off my mind thing. I don't know.

I hope you are all doing well and continue to do well. I'm certainly going to try and if I slip up, I will be honest and let you know.

Thanks once again

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Cheers and Thanks!

Just been looking at that link you left Dubbs. Seems to make a very good read and I have been making notes of all the points that stand out to me for me to read in my moments of weakness.

The rational part of my brain is finally overpowering the irrational part, just. The last few hours have been hell but I didn't succumb. For the life of me, I don't know how I didn't. I had it in my head that after I had finished my dinner tonight I was going to go and get some cigs and undo all this last week! Thank gawd I didn't.

Don't want to over dramatise things, but if it wasn't for the well wishes on here from everybody I know I would have failed my quit by now. D'ya know, its like I have some 'responsibility' within the team I'm in to not go back on my quit. Hell I don't know lol Its hard to describe.

Once again, thanks for putting up with my moaning and for al your support

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Maddy How you feeling today babe. linda xxxxxxxx

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Don't run away from the forum forever maddy! Hope you stick with it while you are awol! Post back sometime so we know you are still strong!

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Be Strong!

You do not need a cigarette. It solves no problems, in fact succumbing only makes you feel worse! Keep going girl!

I have been quit for 4 Days, 21 hours, 41 minutes and 54 seconds (4 days). I have saved £44.12 by not smoking 294 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day and 30 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 05/03/2008 00:15

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Aww thanks kenny lol You know, I don't know what it is about you, but as soon as I see that you have posted I just know its going to make me chuckle I think you're great! *is such a brown nose!* 'tis true tho!

Thanks for your 'comments' by the way, you're a great help

Hey Viking and Linda. I'm not too bad. Tried staying away for a whole day and NEARLY succeeded! Guess what? Still thought about fags all day lol Today has been yet another bad day but I'm hoping today is the 'mother' of all days and things can only get easier now....heres hoping! Thank you, you're all stars