What a Night

I need to get this out of my system. The nicotine monster plagued me last night even though I kept myself occupied for most of it I really, really wanted a ciggie!! Even the inhaler didn't help much. The only things stopping me was I couldn't be bothered to go to the shops and there were none in the flat (thank goodness). What helped me was I kept saying to myself (and Roo, my cat I talk to her a lot - she doesn't answer back - well not all the time) I do not want to go back to day 1 again. I had a rotten night's sleep (one of many) and the monster followed me to work. He is starting to disappear now (hurray). I know I have just got to keep saying to myself that I do not want to go backwards and must look forward and if that doesn't work think that I will be letting myself down if I should lapse.

Sorry if I have rambled on but needed to get it out!!!

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  • Let it go Jan - great ramble!!!! Thats why this place exists - Imagine a forum without words!

    Good for you on the strong fight you put up last night, me , you and a cat named Roo will get through.....cue the music!

  • Hi Jan, major congratulation for resisting the fake charm of the nic monster! :)

    You did wonderfully and this experience has made you stronger, before you even know it ;) Be very proud of yourself as you deserve to, keep focused and soon things will start to get easier, I promise :)

  • Let it go Jan - great ramble!!!! Thats why this place exists - Imagine a forum without words!

    Good for you on the strong fight you put up last night, me , you and a cat named Roo will get through.....cue the music!

    Thanks Huntergatherer - I liked that last bit - cheered me up no end. Hehehe!

  • Hi Jan, major congratulation for resisting the fake charm of the nic monster! :)

    You did wonderfully and this experience has made you stronger, before you even know it ;) Be very proud of yourself as you deserve to, keep focused and soon things will start to get easier, I promise :)

    I do hope so - it is the first time I have wanted a ciggie that strongly since I quit. The slip was when I was annoyed with my other half. Have been annoyed with him since but haven't let it get to me like last time:D.

  • Jan, that's exactly how i think of the craving - as a disgusting, snarled up little monster, sitting on my shoulder just willing me to take a cig, that would make him happy - but oh no! Make him a winner and me a looser, not gonna happen!

    I'm bigger and better than that and I'm just gonna knock the sh1t clean right outta him - dare he mess with me.

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