I need to get this out of my system. The nicotine monster plagued me last night even though I kept myself occupied for most of it I really, really wanted a ciggie!! Even the inhaler didn't help much. The only things stopping me was I couldn't be bothered to go to the shops and there were none in the flat (thank goodness). What helped me was I kept saying to myself (and Roo, my cat I talk to her a lot - she doesn't answer back - well not all the time) I do not want to go back to day 1 again. I had a rotten night's sleep (one of many) and the monster followed me to work. He is starting to disappear now (hurray). I know I have just got to keep saying to myself that I do not want to go backwards and must look forward and if that doesn't work think that I will be letting myself down if I should lapse.
Sorry if I have rambled on but needed to get it out!!!