What a Night

[nsd_user663_2783]

I need to get this out of my system. The nicotine monster plagued me last night even though I kept myself occupied for most of it I really, really wanted a ciggie!! Even the inhaler didn't help much. The only things stopping me was I couldn't be bothered to go to the shops and there were none in the flat (thank goodness). What helped me was I kept saying to myself (and Roo, my cat I talk to her a lot - she doesn't answer back - well not all the time) I do not want to go back to day 1 again. I had a rotten night's sleep (one of many) and the monster followed me to work. He is starting to disappear now (hurray). I know I have just got to keep saying to myself that I do not want to go backwards and must look forward and if that doesn't work think that I will be letting myself down if I should lapse.

Sorry if I have rambled on but needed to get it out!!!

[nsd_user663_2859]

Let it go Jan - great ramble!!!! Thats why this place exists - Imagine a forum without words!

Good for you on the strong fight you put up last night, me , you and a cat named Roo will get through.....cue the music!

[nsd_user663_2162]

Hi Jan, major congratulation for resisting the fake charm of the nic monster!

You did wonderfully and this experience has made you stronger, before you even know it Be very proud of yourself as you deserve to, keep focused and soon things will start to get easier, I promise

[nsd_user663_2783]

Let it go Jan - great ramble!!!! Thats why this place exists - Imagine a forum without words!

Good for you on the strong fight you put up last night, me , you and a cat named Roo will get through.....cue the music!

Thanks Huntergatherer - I liked that last bit - cheered me up no end. Hehehe!

[nsd_user663_2783]

Hi Jan, major congratulation for resisting the fake charm of the nic monster!

You did wonderfully and this experience has made you stronger, before you even know it Be very proud of yourself as you deserve to, keep focused and soon things will start to get easier, I promise

I do hope so - it is the first time I have wanted a ciggie that strongly since I quit. The slip was when I was annoyed with my other half. Have been annoyed with him since but haven't let it get to me like last time:D.

[nsd_user663_2867]

Jan, that's exactly how i think of the craving - as a disgusting, snarled up little monster, sitting on my shoulder just willing me to take a cig, that would make him happy - but oh no! Make him a winner and me a looser, not gonna happen!

I'm bigger and better than that and I'm just gonna knock the sh1t clean right outta him - dare he mess with me.