Hokay, so I know we all have weird dreams during the stop smoking process, whether we are on Champix or not, but last night I had a real GRANDADDY of a bad dream oooohheerr:eek: It went like this:- I dreamt I met up with an ex boyfriend and we were in his flat, when all of a sudden he said 'Do you want to smoke?' So suddenly I am smoking and there are cigarettes everywhere, rollies and tailor-mades hidden in the bookcase, heellpp So then he went out (still part of the dream of course) and came back with a pack of 10 for me, and before I knew it I looked in the packet and realised I had smoked about 3 and a half of them without even knowing I had done it LOL!! And I was saying, 'I've lost my quit, I've lost my quit' and I was so gutted. Then things got kinda complicated cos I dreamt I was back in my own flat and everything was alright again. But in reality I was still asleep, so I kept flitting around in this damn dream, one minute at home and okay, the next minute in his flat and smoking, and I didn't know what was going on cos I kept going back into this crazy dream. It was so horrible cos I really couldn't distinguish the dream from reality. Obviously I woke up for real eventually and realised I hadn't lost my quit, phew but that was the worst dream I have had so far. Think it serves me right really for thinking bad thoughts before I went to sleep, kind of wanting a 'holiday' from the quit, and wanting to smoke for a day and then start the quit all over again. TERRIBLE thinking I know. But I am back on track today and no way would I swap my increased fitness for a lousy cigarette.
Shows just how powerful the nicotine addiction is though, and still in my subconscious mind. And conscious mind sometimes too. But bit by bit I am learning to deal with it, and I so want to be smoke-free for Christmas, as it would mean so much to my elderly Mum. And to me of course.