To Awaken

Everyday the need to smoke was/is wearing me down. I couldn't take the fact that I'm so dependent on nicotine in general. What nicotine does for me isn't enough to make up for what it is doing to me. :(

I have 9 nieces and nephews whom I never want to see smoke and I never want them to have to go through losing me over something like cancer due to smoking.

I want to be able to feel fresh air in my lungs and get all my taste buds back to normal so I can enjoy food to its fullest!

I want mental freedom from the grip that cigs have on me. The constant I need a smoke oh I haven't smoked blah blah stuff is driving me insane!

I can't remember how it felt to go a day without smoking. I don't want to wake up one day to find the effects of smoking have taken their toll and are to late to reverse.

Mostly, I just want to live! I wanted to quit before I do anymore damage. :o

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  • You are so right and you really do need to quit! Pick your method whether it be cold turkey, patches, champix whatever it may be, just do it! You are still young and you have the rest of your life to live smoke free. GOOD LUCK!

  • Come on then Liz, just make the decision and start the rest of your life as a non smoker :) I think you're at the point where you really DO have that strenght in you - in some of your words I recognize myself, I was so fed up with being addicted too! God knows I was so majorly overwhelemed by my compulsive need to always smoke, so frustrated to realize I couldn' function at all without knowing where/when I was going to smoke my next cigarette...But I quit rather abruptly, after all, and never looked back, it was a liberation, truly so. You can do it as well!

  • Come on then Liz, just make the decision and start the rest of your life as a non smoker :) I think you're at the point where you really DO have that strenght in you - in some of your words I recognize myself, I was so fed up with being addicted too! God knows I was so majorly overwhelemed by my compulsive need to always smoke, so frustrated to realize I couldn' function at all without knowing where/when I was going to smoke my next cigarette...But I quit rather abruptly, after all, and never looked back, it was a liberation, truly so. You can do it as well!

    I just read your other reply first :)

    Thanks for thinking I could before you knew that I was :o

    Its been a long day and I'm just getting of work so I'm happy to go home and unwind and have one day under my belt :D

  • Liz

    I was in exactly the same position as you, but i never took the leap from hating the habit and wanting to quit, to actually stopping.

    I left it a little late, and then one day had a heart palpitation. Turns out nothing wrong with the heart, it was probably down to stress or something like that.

    Needless to say I quit when it happened.

    There is nothing more scary than facing your own mortality. The decision for me was made there and then. I had one blip on Monday this week, but it hasn't spoiled my resolve. in fact I think it has strengthened it. Smoking is a seriously smelly and disgusting habit, and returning to a non-smoking status and trying one out has re established that in my head.

    You want to taste food, smell air, and breathe again. Believe me after a month of not smoking, everything, even cold wintry mornings, are a delight. The return of senses is overwhelming. I smoked for 6 years too, believe me it is a long enough time, your body will reward you everyday you don't smoke.

    Oh, the only way you won't miss it is to really understand and acknowledge how you feel RIGHT NOW as a smoker. And REMEMBER this daily. You mustn't become complacent, otherwise you will slip back.

    Well done on starting your journey! :D

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