Hi guys and girls,
This is the weirdest thing ever, i'm actually writing on a non-smoking forum, this just shows how my mind is working right now!!!... I reallllllly need a cig, but I am not going to give in because I keep thinking if i don't do it now I never will, its not been too bad earlier today while I was at work because i only smoke 1 during my break and 1 b4 work., however when I get home I usually smoke around 6 cigs while watching tele and before going to bed.... and this is what i am missing right now, I'm not sure what 2 do with myself, I've opened the fridge door 6 times so far just looking for something to take my mind off it. I've eaten a packet of crisps, 2 apples and some nuts as well as my dinner I had when i got home from work... I know its disgusting but I can't help myself... I usually smoke around 8-9 cigs a day... I've bought some nicotine gum, but only had 1 piece becos I can't stand the way it makes ur mouth feel... This is the 1st full day, please tell me it gets better.... I can't do this every night... the biggest challenge will be when I go 4 a drink 2moro with friends... I usually end up smoking up to 20 cigs whilst having a drink...I'm not sure if i'll enjoy myself without a cig, BUT I HAVE 2 SUCCEED..i am not going to give in becos i want to prove it 2 myself that I am in control of my body, and I don't want2 let myself and my friends down. I 'm not sure how long i'll feel like this though, I think I might just go to bed early tonite!!..
i'm 25 an have been smoking for 7 years.