Needless to say I have made it to Day 5, and I have taken on some large challenges through out the day that have tested me...
So I sat down at my computer this morning and a work colleague mentions that it's my wifes birthday on Sunday. Not wanting to miss it this year I decided to blaze into town and get sorted out.
Now what I am about to say is a bit mean but meant in the best possible way "Even the pensioners in Marks & Spencers plodding about at 1 kph didn't push me back to the smokes".
So feeling pretty good about my self I wondered back to my car and noticed two lovely ladies having a smoke outside... So I proceeded to walk past them and got a smell of the ciggy smoke... AND GOD DID IT SMELL GOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!
I am sorry everyone but I didn't find it at all horrible... Now for anyone who has read my posts they'll probably know that I actually enjoyed smoking, and my biggest problem is that I am not 100% committed to giving up. I don't really socialize at pubs or clubs and I use to smoke all on my own at the back of my garden.
Anyhow, the up shot of this is that I just thought to my self "Oh well" and plodded on not really that bothered about the experience.
So then my business partner turns up with some computer memory, now being absolute smarty pants, and I quote the statement we both made "What could possibly go wrong, we're only installing extra memory"... Every thing did do wrong... 6 hours later the memory is back in its packaging my video cards don't work together any more, two parts of the PC's case broke off (And not through me standing on it either!!), and I cannot use the PC for work, so I am going to have to crank up the old laptop for a few days.
Now please note, that this would normally of triggered a smoking relapse, and in the past (I may have mentioned on this forum before) I have been known to jump up and down repeatably on my computers before literally throwing them or kicking them out of the office (I believe I stabbed one straight through the motherboard once :)).
And after that experience I proceeded in to my house and changed three light bulbs and the fridge water filter.
All this without wanting a ciggy or getting angry ... Now that is a miracle...
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I have to say I always enjoy reading your posts, always make me laugh or smile! hehe.
I, like you, enjoyed smoking and I do question myself now trying to figure out if I am 100% committed to giving up, but I guess it is a case of one day at a time and we will see how it goes. So far still going lol.
I think you did fab today, another day without smoking when you could have quite easily of had one. So you should feel really proud!
And now I have been awarded the "OFFICIAL SEAL OF AWESOMENESS" I am just going to get even more difficult to live with.
I am so cool Apart from last month when I ran a virus on my computer out of curiosity and spent the next two days re-installing WindowsXP and all the software on it ( My mouse pointer was just hovering over the icon and my mind was saying "no don't do it" and my finger just "double clicked", not good ).
The missus is getting impatient now, wants to be able to sleep on her stomach again. Very hard to do when you're over 8 months pregnant, not impossible mind you, but it doesn't help when our son then uses her as a see-saw.
She isn't very happy with me at the moment... I am trying to find someone to be her birthing partner... Buggered if I am doing that again... :rolleyes:
Seriously though I am a bit concerned that being up the hospital might be the excuse I need to start smoking, so I think I am going to avoid the situation totally.
Besides I'd be gutted if her waters broke in my car on the way to the hospital...
Sorry, sorry, a bit insensitive I know, but none-the-less public transport will be safer and cheaper... Think of the environment and all that.
She isn't very happy with me at the moment... I am trying to find someone to be her birthing partner... Buggered if I am doing that again... :rolleyes:
Seriously though I am a bit concerned that being up the hospital might be the excuse I need to start smoking, so I think I am going to avoid the situation totally.
Besides I'd be gutted if her waters broke in my car on the way to the hospital...
Sorry, sorry, a bit insensitive I know, but none-the-less public transport will be safer and cheaper... Think of the environment and all that.
Well done on getting so far Gav. I'm also one of those reluctant to give up types.
You can't really be serious with the above post? Surely being with a pregnant woman or in a hospital is a pretty safe environment for someone giving up the smokes............besides that, perhaps she doesn't want to go to the hospital either but it took two people to bring that about!
I can understand your reluctance to give up the smokes, but continued 100% commitment for wife & kids???
I am glad I am not the only reluctant person to give up smoking on the planet.
I am deadly serious about hospital... I don't think I've had a non-stressful visit to a hospital yet...
It all started... (Here we go another story...)
When my son was born my wife was in labor for a very long time an in the end the heart rate of tiger (that's my son's nickname) dropped, what with the lack of sleep that is enough to make anyone pick up a ciggy.
Anyhow, all of a sudden three consultants come piling in and I thrust a document infront of my wife which see had to sign (Authorization for the them to get tiger out). While see is signing the document loads of nurses start preparing the bed for transit to another area of the delivery suite.
At this point she was numbed from the waist down totally and one of the consultants started to work, needless to say the consultant turned the baby around and pulled tiger out but during this 30 minutes of hell, no-one explained to us what was going on, which again is enough to make anyone pick up a ciggy afterwards.
Then a week later we have to go back to the hospital for my wife, and for some reason we are given a piece of paper describing symptoms of a virus or something called "Strep B", now apparently it is passed on to the child during birth and the test is only 50% guaranteed to work so it isn't performed because of that (Which I find annoying as its better to find some than none at all... Labour cutbacks and targets... Oh the political statement).
However all the symptoms looked to me like normal baby things, like red cheeks, crying etc... So I turned around and said "my baby has all these symptoms", what did I know...
Anyhow turns out that tiger had "Strep B" and ended up in hospital on anti-biotics for 1 week with my wife, however they had to perform a lumba puncture on tiger to confirm it, not nice seeing your 2 week old son have that done, poor little sod.
The doctor actually congratulated me on picking it up so early, where infact it was pure luck that we had visited the hospital for my wife.
Turns out the "Strep B" can be quite fatal in babies... What a twist of fate...
What I am trying to say, is that Hospitals are probably the most stressful place to be for me based on past experiences, and it is likely that I will get very anxious and bored waiting and have a lapse.
However just to let everyone know, I will be at my wife's side if she wants me there, if she wants me to look after our son and have my mother as a birthing partner then thats fine, I'll do whatever she wants, even if it means starting at day 1 again
Wow What A Guy, Have To Say I Totaly Agree With You. There Are Times In Life When This War With Nic " That We Are All Obsesed With " Can Go On Hold. Dosnt Mean Nics Won Just More Inportant Issues Are A Priority. That In Mind I Realy Hope Things Move So Fast You Wont Even Have Time To Consider Nic, And You Will Be Celebrating With A Drink To Wet Your Little Princess Head. Just Take Things As They Come And Put Nic In The Background. Good Luck And Best Wishes Gav .
You don't want to be at the hospital because of previous problems, If you hadn't of been at the hospital before your tiger may well not be here!!
Thank god your wife had you and didn't have to go it alone, there is avoiding smoking related circumstances, I don't think the hospital is one you will have plenty enough to think about, the baby will come quicker this time.
Alternatively, there is always a home birth I personally favor the water too, you can get birthing pools at home now.
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( My mouse pointer was just hovering over the icon and my mind was saying "no don't do it" and my finger just "double clicked", not good ).
you will have plenty enough to think about, the baby will come quicker this time.
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