OMG 2 months

Yay me! I've been smoke-free for 2 months today :D

Strangely enough my mom, without knowing about my "anniversary", asked me about my quit earlier today - after nagging me on a daily basis since my early twenties about smoking she has hardly acknowledged that I've quit :rolleyes: - she was curious as to how I am doing, how I feel, if I miss smoke etc, and I said I'm strong and satisfied about it on many levels yada yada but I also told her it ain't easy at times - take yesterday! I had forgotten my keys at home and had to wait for hubby to come back home either, so after walking from the subway I settled to sit and wait for him in the park close to home, and that's where my brain very suddenly demanded that I smoke a cigarette :eek: Jeez, what an intensely obnoxious addiction, huh! I didn't, of course, because now I would have to really make the choice to light up, you know, and I'm very well aware that fits of anger/anxiety/stress or whatever would just be lame excuses to me, BUT that lingering thought so persistent was hypnotizing and made me kinda moody all evening because for a few very long minutes I wasn't able to block it out like I now usually do without even having to focus on the task--- I escaped the trap the nic demon set me up with by calling a friend, so I simply stayed on the phone chatting with her and getting distracted until hubby came home. But this proves that smoke is still lurking somewhere in the back of my mind and that you can never relax too much...GRRR!

But yay, I'm smoke-free!!!!!! AND with a brand-new black leather jacket in my closet ;)

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  • Ciao Bella FANTASTICO!! I don't know any more but I'll t.ell you them if I come across them. 2 months is brill. WTG!

    Esp as you are in Italy cos thats like' smoking is ok here'. I have got to face that yet . Cos it's banned here in the uk indoors but is like EVERYWHERE in Tenerife where I go on hol. (have an appt there so visit often) You sound really

    comfy in your quit . I hope to feel like that too one day. Its good at the moment

    albeit only 17days. Take care

    :D

    ps. Just read the label on my wine bottle. FRASCATI!!! (Thats Italian isn't it?)

  • Well done you!!!!!!!!

    Just came back from lanzarote,while you mention spain and yes the people over there mainly tourists light a fag up every mouth full of food!!!

    Esp cos its about £1.20/2 euros for a packet of smokes,only cos there aint no nhs to pay into to help fix there big C they get

  • Well done you!!!!!!!!

    Just came back from lanzarote,while you mention spain and yes the people over there mainly tourists light a fag up every mouth full of food!!!

    Esp cos its about £1.20/2 euros for a packet of smokes,only cos there aint no nhs to pay into to help fix there big C they get

    Whereabouts inLanzarote did you go? B4 we got our place in tenerife we used to go to Playa Blanca .

  • Aw thanks guys you're sweet.

    Actually, smoking here in Italy is banned everywhere indoors since January 10, 2005 ;) It is a very strict rule that (oddly enough) was accepted very quickly by the entire country and has inspired a lot of people to quit...it has taken a while for me though hehe. Better later than never I guess :D

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    Great job! Doesn't it feel so wonderful making it to such a hard milestone?!! You are doing amazing. Keep going and I can't wait to see you in month 3!! :D

  • Thanks for the support NS4M hun, I really appreciate it. This forum has been helping me more than I can say, and I'm not sure I would be so positive and strong if it wasn't for you guys and your posts here, seriously. So again, thanks :)

  • Well done Francesca - its great to get to these milestones and reflect on how far we've come.

    CONGRATULATIONS!!!

    I understand about the thoughts coming from nowhere, after this long you can go for weeks without a thought, then 'bam' a strong one comes along. And you have absolutely no desire to actually smoke, but because the THOUGHT is so strong, is makes you feel bad that its still around.

    I think you/we have to accept that it will sneak back up on us sometimes, and we have to deal with it, because it could take just one of those thoughts to put is back to square one. I've quit for over 5 months before, and one moment like that put me back to square one, CRAZY!!!

    This time i'm prepared for it and do not want to be caught out by the demon nic.

    I've been thinking about cigs ALOT the past few days. Don't want one, and i'm not craving one, but thinking about them LOADS!!!! Its so strange because i really don't want one. In fact, i was watching a film yesterday and someone was smoking, and i could imagine the taste and the suffocating feeling as you inhale URRGHGGHHHH don't want to do that ever again!!! So why are they on my mind!!??

    Anyhooo - i can cope with thoughts, they won't kill me, they'll go away.

    CIGS ARE EVIL.

    Big well done again - you are doing so well :D :D

  • Aw choco, thanks for the support and help :) Yeah you pretty much expressed perfectly what I feel when that random thought hits...I think what pisses me off is the out-of-the-blue aspect of that kind of thought, something like "how do you dare to pop up into my mind now?!?" But then again I have to remember 2 months are a good achievement but OMG, still so early in my quit lol :D It's so reassuring to be here where I feel like I really belong in this quit adventure! :)

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