Yay me! I've been smoke-free for 2 months today
Strangely enough my mom, without knowing about my "anniversary", asked me about my quit earlier today - after nagging me on a daily basis since my early twenties about smoking she has hardly acknowledged that I've quit :rolleyes: - she was curious as to how I am doing, how I feel, if I miss smoke etc, and I said I'm strong and satisfied about it on many levels yada yada but I also told her it ain't easy at times - take yesterday! I had forgotten my keys at home and had to wait for hubby to come back home either, so after walking from the subway I settled to sit and wait for him in the park close to home, and that's where my brain very suddenly demanded that I smoke a cigarette :eek: Jeez, what an intensely obnoxious addiction, huh! I didn't, of course, because now I would have to really make the choice to light up, you know, and I'm very well aware that fits of anger/anxiety/stress or whatever would just be lame excuses to me, BUT that lingering thought so persistent was hypnotizing and made me kinda moody all evening because for a few very long minutes I wasn't able to block it out like I now usually do without even having to focus on the task--- I escaped the trap the nic demon set me up with by calling a friend, so I simply stayed on the phone chatting with her and getting distracted until hubby came home. But this proves that smoke is still lurking somewhere in the back of my mind and that you can never relax too much...GRRR!
But yay, I'm smoke-free!!!!!! AND with a brand-new black leather jacket in my closet