I'm glad to be here in month 2. Something has changed since I was last here (last month :rolleyes It may be because apart from my 1 day slip, I have been nicotine free for 2 and a half months now, but...... I just do not care for fags any more. I don't want a fag but neither do I hate them...........they are just fags. They leave me totally unmoved, one way or the other....they are just fags.
Also, I have come to realise (and this may sound silly) that I used to allow myself to get riled by situations so that I could have a fag!:eek: Instead of trying to resolve/rectify a difficult situation I was allowing it to develop to the point that I'd "have" to have a fag, almost as if I was trying to justify smoking. It's only now, looking back, that I can see what was going on. Now, if there is a difficult situation or a problem, I will tackle it properly i.e. without recourse to a fag.
It all seems so obvious and simple now and it is quite horrifying how nicotine can take over your mind so completely. :eek:
Just as an aside, I was in my local shop the other day, where fags are still on display. "My" old fags (20 Rothman's Superkings Menthol, please :o) are now £7.38 a pack. :eek::eek: If I was still smoking, I'd be choosing between smoking and eating!
Oh, and that old loser nic o'teen has just paid for one year's membership of the National Trust for me! He'd already bought me one year's membership for Westonbirt Arboretum. Oh, and I'm off to Blenheim Palace on Sunday! So shove that in your fag and smoke it, nic!!!
Sorry, getting a bit carried away there :o, but I just feel so different about it all now.