Got to 7 weeks yesterday and now into my second month. Side effects still haunting me. First 2/3 weeks I was told would be a little hair raising but apart from a few cravings nothing I couldn't handle with a little faith. Into my 5 week and I experienced panic like you would never believe, real flight or flight feelings.
Booked to see refelxologist yesterday and offloaded a lot which helped and she did a lot of tapping on me (also in Paul McKenna's book).
So what did I do. Bought 10 cigs on the way home and puffed at one. First puff, coughed. Second puff was good, sorry but it was. Then no sensation no feelings of 'coming home' just nothing. WHY oh WHY did I do it?
Well I did it because I was angry. I wasn't expecting such emotions to come like waves with giving up smoking- anxiety, sadness, nausea, can't sleep, sleep too much, eat too much then appetite goes, digestion problems with acid and bile. Such a rollercoaster of withdrawal symtoms, yes yes I knew I would experience cravings with anxious/aprehension feelings but none of the other crap! especially after 6 weeks when everyone says you should be over the worst. CRAP, CRAP, CRAP.
Sorry to sound off but is anyone else feeling like me. Please tell me it will get better. I do not see my blip as a failure and will not count this as true smoking quite the opposite. It takes courage to quit even for 1 day and for me to get to 7 weeks after 45 years of smoking is quite a feat. I may have another blip, I don't know, who knows what tomorrow may bring. I do know that I will face each day with courage and even if I falter I know I am trying.
Will keep you posted on how I get on.