So, I've just had first ciggie in 3 days.
It was bloody awful.
Been getting stressed out at work. I work in technical sales, and the Italians, Belgians, Portuguese and French have been giving me "poo" all day and my levels have been rising.
The amazing revelation is: I do not feel less stressed.
It did not help. If anything I am now more stressed that I let myself fall so easily, and am back at square 1.
Cigarettes do not help reduce stress levels, they are just a way to excuse yourself from the situation (and go outside away from the telephones). Just walking around the office for 5 minutes would have had the same effect. (Or posting a message on here )
Still there is nothing I can do about the past. Won't beat myself up about it.
See you all on Day 1 page tomorrow