I am listening to a very good book that “YOU” might want to read or listen to. “the subtle art of not giving a f*ck” by Mark Manson. Gives a very different outlook on pretty much everything. That is a good thing for us. I know that “YOU” are asking why, that is normal. All of us have asked that question in our ms lives. This is okay,understandable, normal. “YOU” might ask this question many times over your many ms years, this is nothing to admonish yourself over. It is perfectly normal. Read that sentence again. It is normal and so are “YOU” Okay a little broken very confused and frustrated but “YOU like me, are now chronically incurably disabled and there is nobody alive that can tell either of us why or how to make it go away. So it is okay to be angry and upset. Have a cry, shed a tear or a lot of tears. I remember when I was first diagnosed(DX’d) I cried for weeks. A few months ago looking at the night sky as I sometimes do I shed a tear. I am not really sure why I just did. “YOU” do understand that a tear every know and again does not make “YOU” weak, merely human. This is a condition that some humans get, and by your tears “YOU” my ms sibling show us that “YOU” are human. Somebody had to get this illness and “YOU” got it and can cope. It is not easy, give yourself some time. It takes time to come to terms with. To make the changes that have to be made for your lifelong ms journey. There are many ups and downs, honestly mostly downs, but “YOU” can cope and cope well.
I was once told that somebody in my family was going to get this disease and “YOU” are the one right now who is strong enough to cope with it. “YOU” may have your doubts, I most certainly did, and they may never totally go away but “YOU” can cope. It is yours and “YOU” can always cope survive and thrive with it. Would “YOU” rather that one of your siblings had it instead of “YOU”? No it is yours as it is mine and personally I intend to put my shoulders back, stare it straight in the eye and take the next step and continue taking the next step until….
Royce
there is no other way to look at it. I will not sit in that cold dark corner weeping and asking why, I have a life to live and a good one it will be
