Will I soon be sure that nothing about my sexual orientation has changed when I can finally leave the HOCD obsessions behind me?

[Jacodok]

Hello everyone! For months I have been tormented by doubts about my sexual orientation, although I was previously straight and am currently in a relationship, obsessive thoughts are constantly trying to convince me otherwise. I am very afraid that I will believe these thoughts and they will make me lesbian. That things will never be the same again. I'm afraid that at some point I won't really want to be straight anymore or that I'll have to leave my boyfriend at some point. Our relationship is currently in a crisis, one part of me longs for love and closeness with my boyfriend and the other part wants to convince me that I'm just imagining it. It's so awful and I don't know what to do anymore. I wonder if I manage to overcome my obsessive thoughts at some point and stop giving them so much attention, that I will then find my way back to my old life and know that I am still straight, even if these thoughts have made me totally insecure and I have given them some credence?